Love from afar

Final Decision

Live with no regrets has always been my motto in life. I am going to confess to Fir. I know the chances of me winning his heart is slim but I want him to know that there is a girl named Chanel who once loved him. Things might turn out awkward after that but at least my feelings are being conveyed to him and I'm sure this decision of mine is what my heart wants.

Confession. I have never confessed to anyone in my life before and I didn't think I will ever need to. I always thought about how guys do the confession but I guess times has changed and sometimes we girls need to be brave for love. How should I go about confessing? Buy a flower and go on my kneels? Okay maybe not. That is what guys do when they are proposing. How much dumber can I be. This is going no where man. I guess asking Ian would be the wiser since he is a guy and Fir's good friend. He should know best how to touch Fir's heart.

I decided to whatsapp him.

"Hey Ian. I know this sounds crazy but I have decided to confess to Fir."
1 second has passed. 2 seconds. 3 seconds. And here it comes.
"ARE U SERIOUS?!"
"Yeah sure im serious."
"What?! U know he has a girlfriend already aren't u just going to end up being hurt???!"
"I know. But that doesn't mean I will change my mind. I cant just give up on him without confessing. I need him to know that there is me who loves him too."
"Well. If u insist. What can I say. Just don't come crying to me afterwards."
"Right. Anyways. I need ur help. If u were Fir what kind of confession would touch ur heart?"
"Urm... Buying me branded shoes?"
"This is so u friend 🌚"
"Okay okay how about a hand written card or sth."
"Hand written card.. Sounds good. So should I meet up with him and hand it to him personally?"
"Yeah I think u should. I can help arrange the timing if u wan."
"That would be great thanks bruh."
"Welcome. Just dont expect too much so u dont fall too hard."
"Ha. Thanks for that encouragement? U make it sound like im going to fail for sure."
"Well.. Just. Good luck."
And then I greyticked him again because as usual I didn't know what else to say and I just  have this habit of not wanting to bluetick.

I prepared mentally for Friday to come where I'm supposed to have "lunch" again with Fir and Ian.