NO STRINGS ATTACHED

chapter 1

It was just a one night stand like  no strings attached. But why do u keep  wanting to feel those  hands on my skin again and again.
Whenever I  think about how he touched me that night God those moments keep replaying in my mind all ever again.
"Great" now I've got a boner
I took off my clothes and went to get a cold  shower.
But still " fap'" fap" fap" fap "fap" fap" fap"fap"fap"
My mind involuntary slips to that night's event.
My boyfriend and I had a huge first after finding out he cheated on me.
And worst he didn't try to deny it or feels guilty instead he was practically glowing with happiness in his eyes that we've finally broken up.
We're dating for a Year  now  and I really did love him.
"Him" ha!
Even calling his name burns.

Kai and I have been dating for a Year  now and we both loved each other or so I thought .
What ever peace and happiness I felt for our upcoming anniversary one  year died.
I had planned to surprise him. Cause lately he seems off more like distance told my self it was just stress and stuff .
But nothing prepared me for  what I saw Kai cheating on me with some random dude.
I had went in full  gave it all to make him happy on our anniversary but I guess I was wrong all along about Kai
And God it  hurts so much
I had a flower bouquet in my hands  and was heading towards his room at his apartment since I didn't see him at the living room
The more closer I got the more I hear what my MIND has already pictured about what's happening but my heart refuse to let my mind win.
Until I saw Kai beneath another guy
Him moaning like crazy he and made eye contact and worst he didn't even stop when we did.
Instead he pulled the guy close and kept on moaning while directly looking at my as if passing a message to me .
I stood Frozen in shock.
Every thing started spinning I felt dizzy and dropped the flowers finally I think that got the other guys attention and finally made him realise that someone else was in the room during their "intimate" activity.
Annoyed the guy stop Kai got up from the bed all furious at me for spoling his sweet moment .
He impatiently walked towards me and said " while are you still here can't you see
Ughhhh Ethan you don't just know when to quit do you
Ha !
I'm Breaking up with you
So take up all these junks you called gifts and get the hell out of my building.
My body went still all little hopes I had  that maybe this was a dream and this wasn't real felt far far away the moment Kai say those words.
Okay I swallowed hard seemly find my voice to speak .
But can you tell me why I asked
Why Kai asked back no practically screamed back at me
Ethan you're funny I told you I don't play those dumb I'll love you till the day that I die play
And besides you barely touched me .
And how do you expect me to feel huh
To sit there like Im what a statue????
Please  Ethan let me be  okay I don't  want this don't want you.
The other guy seemingly out of patience called out to Kai. And he responded to a way he never did to me. Only for them to continue their activity as if I was never in the room
The drive and road all felt blurry and  I didn't know when I ended up in a bar drunk .
Wasted drowning in  the loss of Kia my boyfriend .. ex boyfriend
Memories of us being together came flooding in .
And I used the achol to fight down those memories that they were no longer Kai  and I anymore.