Closeted Hearts (A Byler Fanfiction)

Chapter 1

Will's POV

- beep beep beep -

"Shit shit shit!" I exclaim as I turn off my obnoxious alarm clock. 

"Will honey! Wake up! School starts in 45 minutes!" My mom exclaims from behind my bedroom door.

Usually 45 minutes would be enough time to freshen up and get to school, but today was different. Today I promised Dustin that I would meet him before class so he could show me his newest science project that could help end Vecna. 

I jump out of bed and dart straight to my closet to find a graphic tee shirt, which was peeling from how much I've worn it already, and a pair of jeans. I hurry and put them on while frantically searching my bedroom floor for a pair of socks. I don't care if they are dirty, shit I don't care about anything but getting to school at least 10 minutes earlier than usual. I find a pair of shoes that match my shirt and run out of my room and straight into the bathroom to brush my teeth and fix up my hair in the mirror. 

As I stumble into the kitchen I see my mom and Hopper sitting at the table reading the newspaper and sipping on hot black coffee, while Jonathan and El are stuffing their face with cereal and watching cartoons on the box television that sits on our kitchen counter. 

"Will, what's the rush hun? You still have 30 minutes before class starts." My mom says concerningly as I quickly grab a piece of toast that was just lying on the table. "Nothing mom, I just promised Dustin I would be at school early to see his new project." Before I knew it I already had grabbed my backpack that was sitting on the living room couch and ran out the door to get on to my bike. 

As I biked to school I could feel the chilly morning air press against my skin, sending a shiver down my spine. I shake it off as soon as I arrive on school property. I instantly no longer worried about feeling cold, I was only focused on finding Dustin to see his project. 

While roaming the school halls searching for him, I see him standing with the one and only Mike Wheeler. Dustin seemed to be showing Mike his project as well, which was a surprise because Mike is never early to school. In fact he is always late. Seeing Mike made me lose the pep in the step but I keep walking closer anyway. I don't fully understand why him and I grew so distant recently. After all, Mike was my muse and the person I always went to when I felt down, but seeing him grow up and start showing more interest in girls rather than playing D&D in his basement kind of upset me. I miss how things used to be between me and him, but I just don't have the courage to ask him about it.

"Will... Earth to Will" Dustin said while waving his hands in front of my face. I snap out of the trance Mike always seems to have me in when I see him. "Hey" I say in response to Dustin, while my cheeks start to burn. "What's up with you Will? You seem so uninterested in my project." He says while frowning towards me. "Sorry dude," a small pause takes place while I think of an excuse "I'm just tired." I say while being so flustered. "Alright, well its probably time to start heading our separate ways to class" says Dustin. I assure him with a slight grin and nod while starting to back up and head my own way to class. 

As I start walking to my class I can't help but feel like an absolute asshole now, I can't believe I completely missed acknowledging his project because I was too busy looking at Mike. I don't understand why I feel so attracted to him, after all it is wrong. My lip starts to quiver as I think about how disgusting my mind is for seeing Mike in this type of way. Nobody knows I think this way, but it's like Mike can see right through me and knows what I really am. I mean all though he's never questioned it or brought it up, I just get the feeling he does know. It's never scared him off though, which is relieving but I just don't get it. 

Tears start streaming down my cheeks, its something I can't help. I've always seemed to be so fragile when it comes to my feelings. All I want right now is for my best friend to give me a hug but I feel so ashamed and scared of him. 

I wipe my tears and turn around to get one last look at Mike from afar before walking into my class, but to my surprise he was staring right at me but only this time he was much closer than before. 

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Note: hi guyssss!!! i am so so so excited to be back and hopefully continue this series about byler. it is currently 7:16 in the morning and i haven't slept yet because i was making this lmaooo sorry for it being short but i am so so tired right now. but please leave any questions or concerns in the comments! xoxo - elyssa