Insecure

I'M SORRY

POV: ZURI 

I woke up in so much pain my body hurting all over and Jacobs arm being around me was not helping, "Jacob" I said trying to get his hand off me and trying to move my body out of bed and all he did was groan and pull me closer to him which caused much pain "Owww" I screamed it just came out I didn't mean to make it that loud, "Zuri what's wrong, are you okay?" He asked as he got up and started examining all the scars "I'm hurting Jacob, my body is in pain everywhere" I said as tears started coming down I didn't want them too "I'm sorry" I said as I tried to wipe them away "Hey, hey, hey it's okay listen let's get you to the hospital quickly to get you checked out what about that huh?" he said as he was looking for a pair of pants for me and himself "I don't think I can be in pants right now, it burns badly" I said looking at him ,he just looked at me and then quickly picked me up in  bridal  style as I wrapped my hands around his neck and he quickly went to the car putting me in the passenger seat and quickly went to the drivers sit and we were heading to the hospital.

POV:JACOB

When we got to the hospital I went straight to the other side picking her up again and rushing her to the front door "hi, could we please get help she's in pain" I said reaching the front desk. The lady came out of the desk quickly and ran for a nearby wheelchair and I put Zuri in and they took her in a room shutting the door before I could come in "sorry sir but you have to wait here while we examine her body" the nurse said, I just turned and went the other way to distract myself instead I just went to buy her some food at McDonalds eating mine cause they took a bit longer then I thought, after almost two and a half hours they called me in so I stood quickly taking the food and going in "damage isn't bad but next time this happens please immediately bring her to the hospital but non the less nothing is wrong or damaged we just need you to apply the wounds with this cream" she said giving it to me I just gave her a nod and she left the room then I quickly made my way to Zuri who was laid in the bed "Are you okay, no pain" I asked taking her hand and rubbing it she shook her head sighing and also nodding then giving her the food.

Then she cried and started repeating 'I'm sorry' over and over again like maybe ten times straight and she just kept weeping "shhhhhhhh, it's okay" I said and hugged her after staying like that for a while she finally let me go and wiped her tears and just smiled "There's my beautiful baby" I said and kissed her head "Thank you so much" she said and started eating her food and I just wanted to hold her with me and take this insecurity she has cause it's costing her so much and I will always be beside her every time this happens and I'll show her that.

After her eating she was discharged so we head home, opening the front door for her "thank you she mumbled and went inside to sit on the couch, "do you want water" I asked going to the kitchen to drink some myself "no, I'm good" she answered and put on the T.V, walking to the couch and sitting down "I'm sorry I made you worried again" she said not looking at me but ahead at the T.V, I let the silence simmer in  "Nothing to be sorry for as long as your okay then I'm all good" I said getting closer to her and putting her on my lap so she can straddle me and she put her arms around me and her neck in my neck and cried , All I could do was rub her back 

"Look Zuri , I'm gonna be here for you whether you like it or not I want you to be more than confident in your body and trust me I'm willing to be with you all the way but you need to meet me halfway baby, I know it sounds impossible but trust me we can do this even if it's just a little bit, but if it was up to me you know I wouldn't want you to change at all" I said still rubbing her back and after a while the cries died down and her breathing was even which means she was sleeping so I just continued watching T.V .

After two hours she finally woke up and looked more energized "I'm sorry I passed out on you" again with the apologizing  she said and wanted to come off but I held her in place "what do you think your doing" I said looking at her, her face looked down  I took my hands to lift her chin to make her look t me "I was getting off because I've been on you this whole time so I thought you'd be cramping" she said looking at me in the eyes trying her best not to cry "baby did you hear me complain" and she shook her head no "then why would you want to get off this is your place to be on no matter where, what, if you ever want to sit just do it it'll always be only for you okay" I said and kissed her tears that were going sown her cute cheeks

she smiled and nodded "That's my baby, so what do you want to do Its still early" I said to her and just looked at her how can she hate herself she's so beautiful her curly hair, her brown lips , especially those cute chubby cheeks , the way her stomach looks good in crop tops if only she knew what they do to me, how her thighs look bigger in shorts. I'm obsessed with her 

POV:ZURI

he looked at me so deeply it made me feel funny but I could see it was out of adoration you could see in the way his pupils got bigger that made me smile and blush "we could go to the mall or we could bake chocolate cake" I said and put my arms around his neck and his hands went to my butt as he slightly massaged them and I kept kissing over his face and he smiled what I beautiful scene I get to see on a daily "come on let's bake" I said and getting up walking towards the kitchen then soon after he walked in "Okay let's bake".

After baking the place was a mess because Jacob doesn't know how to use a suffer and messed up everywhere as the cake was cooling down we washed all the dishes and packed them away leaving the kitchen clean, wow how my mom would be proud "let's taste the creation we made" I said cutting to slices and we ate it perfection is what it was "this needs a glass of milk" he poured in a mug and we shared the mug of milk eating the cake "thank you for Loving me even in my wild times or moody or depressed times, I really cant thank you enough and I'm sorry about all this the whole cutting myself and stuff" I said ending it with a little chuckle 

He stood in front of me and grabbed my neck not roughly but to bring me closer to him and he just kissed me deeply so the emotions swirling around us his kiss telling me that I was his no matter what and I liked it, "your beauty is out of this world no amount of words I say or  do will even compare to how your beauty is" he said and again we kissed this time a little more aggressive he's tongue sucking on mine making me moan and arch my back making my chest push out onto his and his other hand went to my stomach  and he  grazed my wound trying to grip my waist causing me to hiss "shit baby I'm sorry" he said and pulled away to check my stomach like he tore my stomach or something "calm down I'm okay" I said reassuring him he's so cute

"okay let's get you to bath so we can put some ointment on them okay" He said taking my hand and walking to the bathroom while he poured the water I couldn't help but look myself in the mirror not out of disgust but pity what have I done to myself "Okay get in the bath" he said but as soon as my legs got in contact with the water the pain was too much he noticed and instead of bathing normally I had to wipe myself and Jacob did that for me he even wiped my lady part but didn't look at it in a sexual way but in a way to show that he cares about my hygiene, after that he helped me dress and helped me put on the ointment, getting in bed while he went to shower when he was done we watched movies and ate our cake and finally let the night consume us