Tiniest Blooms Start A Spring - (BL)

Paw

I don't know what it takes to really love. None of the girls in town are interesting. They're the same old same old, but the town is too small to be too picky. At least I have my tiny friend group. Including my best friend since daycare. Alexander May is like the twin I didn't ask for. Just sitting in class with my friends beside me already makes that class ten times better. Hannah and Haley are always making jokes among themselves. I don't understand girl humour. Gabriel on the other hand just watches the two joke around and makes snarky and snappy comments every now and then. Alexander usually focuses on school. He is quiet and attentive in class, but when we hang out us five, he is so outgoing and funny. Ah. I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Tobias Murphy. I age at 16 and I go to a private school in the outskirts of Belgium. In my class I have four great friends called Alexander May who I've known since I was a baby, Hannah Rivier and Haley Truman who I met through elementary school and Gabriel Thompson who just recently became our friend. As much as it seems like this is a generic girls swoon over boys situation. Trust me, it is not. Gabriel tried to pursue Hannah and that's actually how I got to know him. Hannah kept saying he looked ridiculous and like a loser when he tried to flirt. Honestly in my opinion if you're a 'loser' and can only flirt clumsily and awkwardly. That's fine. I mean I can't even flirt nor do I know what to do if someone ended up flirting with me. Probably would just stare and act surprised. In all my 16 years not even one girl has said she fancies me. Pisses me off if I'm being totally honest. 

"Truman."

 I hear the teacher start snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Oh for fuck's sake.. I was four minutes late. It isn't that deep miss.."

If I had Haley's confidence girls would not be an issue to me. She is not afraid to be that girl who tells literal teachers and superiors to stay in place. I admire that.  Then yet again I am snapped out of my thoughts by Haley sitting behind me, next to Hannah.

"Oy, Tobi. You got a cigarette after class? Really in a need of one..."

"Ah no.. Sorry. I still don't smoke."

"Right right... Pussy."

Did Haley just call me a pussy for not smoking? Hannah chuckled a bit at the situation. Right it's so funny to watch your best friend get humiliated because he is in good health. I swear Hannah and Haley are so fucking odd. They laugh at anything! Like a literal misspelled word and they're on the floor laughing and cackling like they haven't seen a joke in eons. Pisses me off. Honestly no. What pisses me off is that Alexander nor Gabriel want to be fun in class. Gabriel is too scared he will be the joke of the school for months to do anything. Alexander.. He has a strict mother who doesn't let his grades slip. I feel bad for him. So many times have I also heard them fight over phone or in person. 

"Andy.."

"Don't talk in class Toto."

Toto. Did he think I was the dog from Oz? He somehow once came up with the nickname Toto, that no one else knows and only uses it in situations others won't hear it. When he says it in public? So quietly only I can hear it. Fuck Toto man. I'm Tobi. Or even Tobias is nice. Toto. Toto. Fuck toto dude. It's so dumb. 

"Fine."

What else can I say but just plain fine? He was strict on no talking in class. He doesn't want to risk anything I see. 

"Gabriel."

"Can we not talk in class? Sorry.."

Right. This is my sign. Shut up. So I turned around and.

"So Haley. Any plans this weekend?"

"I'm going out with Hannah to the beach. You're not invited."

Hannah just giggled next to Haley. That's her entire personality haha. So fucking funny. I turned back around and finally started to do my work. I watched Andy flawlessly write like the entire assignment page. How? How is one's handwriting so smooth and good? Why wasn't I blessed? 
It's so unfair. All my friends are either academically smart, good looking or confident as hell. I'm just plain old Tobias. I hope that one day I could be as confident as Haley, smart as Gabriel and Andy and good looking as Hannah. Fuck it. I'm decent looking, I stay at this school and I can speak to people when the teacher tells me to. Yeah. Yeah it doesn't take a genius to figure out my life is normal as it can get. 

After class I was yet again the last to pack. Hannah and Haley had already left and Gabriel stumbled to keep up with them. Alexander stayed behind to wait for me.

"You know it's honestly embarrassing how you stay.. I'm not a kid."

"You are a kid. And it's not embarrassing at all. I'm your best friend."

"Right. Pulling the best friend card... Again."

"You know I love to."

"Just shut up Andy."

After that Alexander just shut up. Wow. That was probably the first time that had worked so fast.

"You dropped a marker."

Before I could even respond he picked it up, grabbed my wrist and drew a cat on the back of my hand.

"Hey wha- Andy! My parents are gonna see this!"

Andy just laughed at my struggle. He was so heartless. Then he drew one on his own hand and just fist bumped me.

"Now we will both get shouted at by our parents!" 

Then he just gave me the biggest and dorkiest smile ever. Asshole. 

"Let's go to our next class already."

"Alright Toto."

Toto. I hate that nickname. I am not a Toto. I am Tobi or Tobias.

"It's Tobi."

"Right."

He just grabbed my hand and looked at me. I instinctively pulled my hand free and then walked beside him to class.