My (not so) bully

•|Chapter 12|•

We arrive to his place and suddenly he grabs my hand. I don't even have the time to tell him to wait since I can't get distracted by some cuddles. "Noah-" He leads me into the bedroom and my mind just can't shake off the thought that this won't just be cuddles. He slides in the bed and pulls me along with him, making me lay on top of him. God, I need to stop him before those perverted thoughts become reality. "Noah, wait a moment-" He wraps his arms around my waist tightly. This dickhead doesn't know what "wait" means. My hands go to his chest, trying to pull myself away from him but he only uses his strength now and keeps me close. "You can't escape now~" His tone is playful, but I can tell he's not just playing. "Noah, wait a fucking moment!" He finally loosens his grip on my waist but doesn't let go completely, allowing me to sit back... On him. "I came here because I also have to talk to you about something." His smile fades. Maybe he already knows what I want to talk about. "The fuck did Ivan tell you yesterday?" Wow, I unlocked "Angry Noah". But he seems pretty defensive about it. "What? Is there something I shouldn't know about?" His eyes widen slightly in surprise and I guess that's not the case. I sigh. "Listen, I'll just spit it out. Why are you being so nice to me out of nowhere?" He looks away and it's almost like he doesn't want to talk about it. If he was faking it he would have an excuse ready, right? "Ah, that... Well, it's a long story." Something tells me he's being sincere. "We don't have homework so we're not in a hurry." He clears his throat and looks back at me. "Alright, whatever you say. Basically, I didn't really mean to-" I interrupt him. "To ruin four years of my life?" It's almost weird seeing him serious and maybe even sorry for what he's done. "Yeah... The thing is that I took that from my dad." He stops as if thinking if he should continue. Not like I'm gonna leave him with a choice. "Your dad? What do you mean?" He continues. "He always tries to have control on people like me and my mom... And I guess I took that from him." He tightens his grip on my waist, but this time I don't pull away. "How come you're not like him anymore, then?" He chuckles as if nervous talking about it or even embarrassed. "Therapy. It actually helps, you know? It's not like he beats me up, so it's not really a big deal-" I cut him off again. "It still is." I lean closer to his face. "Have you ever told anyone?" He smiles and starts drawing circles on my waist with his fingers. "Nah. And I still won't. I'm not exactly comfortable." Now I feel bad for almost forcing it out of him. But at least now I know that he didn't actually mean anything he's done to me. "I'm... I'm really sorry for you." He ruffles my hair playfully and I don't push him away this time either. "Don't worry your pretty little head. I know he loves me, he just shows it in a wrong way." I don't keep talking about it though, seeing that he already didn't want to talk about it in the first place. His hand falls from my hair and rests on my hip. "I understand. But if you ever wanna talk about it or anything else don't hesitate to call me, alright?" His smile widens, and I'm reassured. "Okay cutie. I know I've never told you, but I'm really sorry for everything. I know that won't fix anything  but I hope you'll forgive me." I cup his face with both of my hands, suddenly leaning even closer. "You should have told me earlier, Noah. Much earlier." His eyes are wide between my hands and he tightens his arms around my waist, making me lay down on top of him again. "As if as stubborn as you are you would have believed me." I rest my head on his chest close his shoulder and chuckle softly. "What made you so sure that I would believe you now?" One of his arms leaves my waist and goes to my back, moving up and down slowly. "Well, first of all you didn't look like you would have accepted a "no" as an answer when you forced me to talk..." Oh. I guess he's right. "But also because it felt like you've changed too during the holidays. Enough to not push me away and instead ask me about this before just stop talking to me and eventually ignore me." I can feel his heartbeat and he's strangely calm for someone who's talking about something so intimate. Which is completely different from my heart rate that's quite quick. "I'm happy that you didn't, Leo." I can hear his voice slowly becoming calmer and sleepier. A little nap won't hurt anybody, right? I nuzzle against his neck slightly and speak again, my voice barely above a whisper. "And I'm glad we cleared this." Finally, I close my eyes and feel his grip loosen completely around my waist.