NOT MY TYPE • YEONGYU

7. Husbands by mistakes

Yeonjun's Pov :

I loathed it!

I desperately loathed it...!

I loathed it so much...

I loathed it so fucking much! - it should not have been like this.

I hate it -because I was trapped in this. I should not have been here. I was not supposed to be here. Wearing the expensive tailored groom outfit. I was not supposed to be here standing in the aisle waiting for someone to come.

No- it was not supposed to be like this. It should not have been like this. It was never meant to be like this.

I was not supposed to be trapped inside this. I was not supposed to be here. I should not be here. I should not have been the one to stand here instead of Soobin.

I should not have been standing here like a replacement of my younger brother here.

I hate it.

I loathed it.

Why did he run away? He said -he was excited. He said -he was anticipated. He said -he was in love with Beomgyu.

Then Why did he have to run?

Was he not supposed to be here? Standing in the aisle waiting for Beomgyu in his groom's outfit. Was he not supposed to be here waiting for Beomgyu to come and accept his extending hand?

Was he not supposed to be here anticipating a future with Beomgyu, taking one step closer in life?

Was he not supposed to be here accepting Beomgyu as his companion for life and making each other the part of their lives with some formalistic vows and promises?

I was never inside these. I was never in the game. I was never a name in the match of business and love. I was never presented in this topic then why now?

I was not there in any moment, not even for once then why this now? Why am I being trapped into all these mess?

Why Soobin run away?

I know -yeah I hated myself for knowing why he ran away. Because he loved beomgyu. He knew Beomgyu didn't want the marriage. He knew the smile on Beomgyu's face was nothing but made of artificial exaggeration. It was not true.

He wanted Beomgyu to be happy. He wanted Beomgyu to continue his studies. That's why even though having so many risks, he dared to ran away. He tried -and he succeed.

But I never wanted this.

| Flashbacks 1 and half hours ago |

" Hyung? " Soobin called out.

Suddenly the excitement on his voice from earlier vanished. He looked around. None was present. It was just he and Yeonjun in the car. Yeonjun was driving the car and Soobin was sitting on the passager seat.

Knowing him too well Yeonjun already knew he was meaning to tell him something. Soobin is usually is not someone to be quite when just some minutes earlier he was excited as ever. Yeonjun hummed as he halted the car in the red light.

There was a silent in the car before Soobin whispered faintly. His voice reducing in the cold air. Barely audible but Yeonjun somehow caught it.

" I can't -I can't do this marriage hyung" Soobin looked down. His eyes down, chin down -he looked like a terrified soul trapped in a dead body. Almost like he was not there. It felt like he was not there anymore. Physically here but mentally far away from there.