just yapping about random stuff <3

2nd little yap thing i prolly shoulda mentioned before

so. i kind of forgot about this or like cbf including it, but imma add it now because that's how these little delusions of mine started. also i'm really sick and bored and genuinely feel like my sinuses are going to explode and i'll be voldemort any second npw

right, so like when i first actually met alberto (as in, properly met, and i can remember it) was last year in like february when i was doing these same sunday carnivals, but i was at boarding school which we won't get into, but basically he'd started at the school i'd gone to for yr 7-8 (i think he was homeschooled for a bit) but i wasnt there anymore, but he'd started doing the swim carnis (and was in my club since it's the closest) so yeah

((i think i first met him when i was like 10 (?) idk i was at my bsf's bday party and they're neighbours so yeah (we weren't bsfs at the time, i was a jealous little shit when i was younger, but i love her now) anyway, i can barely remember anything from that so it doesn't really count because that was like four/five years ago))

so then i actually hated boarding school sfm i left at the end of term 3 and started back at my previous school for the last term.

throughout the entire of term 4, i did not think anything romantic at all for alberto.

then term 1 started in february, still didn't really. then i guess something was starting but i didnt realise, and i was like "how do i not have him added on snapchat yet?? literally all my friends do, and it's not like we're mortal enemies or smth"

so i added him on a sunday night after the swim carnival because i didn't want to be weird and add him while he was like 5m away from me under the same gazebo and currently on snapchat clipping people and sending them to my friends

i think this was like the 9th or something?? it feels like it was earlier or later, but my sister's bday was on a monday and she'd stayed the sunday night before, and left at like 6 in the morning to go to boarding school (she hates it there as well and it's not even been half a term) and i remember showing her the chats but it was definitely on a sunday

anyway, so basically i added him, didn't check my phone until like.. idk 5 or 6epm?? at least not snapchat because i hate snapchat sometimes, and he'd sent me a chat (which i wasn't expecting), so i opened it since i'm not the kind of genius who remembers to half swipe anything from anyone who's not one of my best friends

and he'd said something like: how come you added me? i didnt think you would
(except with like caps and stuff, i just cbf using mine lmao)

and i was like "huh???" i didnt say that though, yk what i said?

i said: idk. tbh i'm not sure

WHAT KIND OF ANSWER IS THAT?? I COULDVE JUST SAID SOMETHING LIKE "oh, because i've got most people added in our class but not you" OR "oh, because we're sort of in the same friend group so i thought i should"

like oh my god. actually, no. i think i did half swipe it, because i remember coming over here and panicking because i didn't know wtf to say to that

anyway, he responded like ten minutes later with: oh, that's not what i was expecting
or: i wasn't expecting that

i dont remember exactly

anyway, when i read that, this time i didnt half swipe and i was like "oh fuck. now i have to respond. what the fuck do i respond with??"

so i ran into my sister's room because she's better at social interaction than me (also, she's 18 months younger than me so we're like kind of close in the way that we're either trying to kill each other like 65% of the time, or vibing the remaining 35%) and i showed her and was like "tf do i say???"