just yapping about random stuff <3

first yap thing whatever it's called

ew i feel like i'm 11 or something obsessing over her first crush who is some guy that's like four years older (he's not actually) but i would get bullied so hard by my irl friends so imma yap here and share my delusions <3 read if you want to idfk 💀💀

ohmygod so this one really just sprung up on me and i have no clue why i like this guy and what the fack but oh well

uhhhhh so i'm gonna call him some fake name because telling stories without names gets so fuckin complicated, so this guy's name is: alberto (first name that came to my mind 💀)

i feel like i gotta give you guys a bit of background on him first.

okay, so alberto is in my class this year, and he was last year as well. my school's tiny, so you're pretty much in a core class for most of high school. anyway, alberto is a little bit stupid so he's actually supposed to be the year above but he got put down. (i feel so bad saying that but that's what happened..)

so because of that, alberto's a bit older (8 and a half months). i forget that a lot ngl. i forget a lot of things but still

anyway, alberto is like a really good swimmer. like a REALLY fuckin good swimmer. as in, he's really catching up to our swim coach (who's another teenage boy that's freakishly good at swimming and has been offered places at swim comps in aus but decided to decline so he can get even better and completely take out the competition or smth idk) and is probably only a three or four or so seconds behind him. the coach (who we'll call david or some shit) is like a couple years older than alberto and does swimming like everyday. alberto does four trainings a week, plus the carnivals on sundays

ANYWAY, so i've decided we've arrived at the first little yap sesh. this stuff is mostly what happened at today's carnival

so, alberto is like freakishly good at swimming, and he knows that too. i am not that good at swimming.. like ngl i'm quite good at breaststroke, but overall... plus i can't do tumble turns or butterfly so that automatically makes me pretty shit, but yk.

and at today's swimming carival, he like wished me luck on my three length medley race (not an unusual thing to do, just he's not really the person to do that, 'specially not me lol) and then he was also saying i swam well (which i did not... i got second to last in my heat...) so that's gotta mean something, yk? like his times are probably half mine. in fact, they pretty much are, and he's saying i'm doing well. i'm probably reading into this too much, but fanfiction has made me delusional so not much i can do about that

(for reference, he gets like 27-32 on his freestyle, and i get like 38-48 on mine. i got 40 today, but the pool was yards not metres so yk)

btw, most of the stuff i mention will be from swimming lmao

wait but something that happened not at swimming that i NEED to tell someone abotu and has been eating me alive the past week. it actually sounds pretty delusional but idgaf because i can be delulu i want to

so.

we were in te reo, and playing wink murderer since our teacher had to take her daughter to the hospital and our relief teacher was useless, and ofc alberto was in, right? so he was the murderer, and yk the aim of the game is to kill people obviously, so yk he 'killed' me, by yk, winking at me

HOLY SHIT

NAH LIKE HE HAD THIS LITTLE FUCKING SMIRK ON HIS FACE AND I WAS LIKE HOLY SHIT AND HE WINKED AT ME AND I WAS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS BUT LIKE WE HELD EYE CONTACT THERE FOR A LITTLE BIT YK

so basically he winked at me and i puffed out my cheeks (to supress whatever face i was gonna make) and sat down all weirdly. and like msde eye contact with him when i was on the ground for like four seconds before i decided that my face was bright red and i needed to look away so i looked over at the girl i sit next to on the bus because she was doing something funny. and i laughed way too hard but oh my fucking god

and i kept getting all giggly and smiley when i pictured alberto winking at me like wtf. that was how i decided that i liked him because abahkajsakjKajakskajskajsksn

anyway, for the past three maybe four weeks, i've either been over analysing every interaction i have with alberto or something is slightly different than it was a month ago. MAYBE IT'S BOTH BUT WHO KNOWS? NOT ME THATS FOR SURE

like i'm explaining this so badly, but he's been interacting with me a lot more and they're all kind of different inteactions, yk? like yeah idfk

oh and this isn't really anything delulu, but it's kinda funny so i wanna share it.

so at one of our shared swim trainings (we've got tuesdays and fridays together) we were doing heaps of breaststroke strengthening (thank god). so that was like kicking and breaststroke lengths. anyway, not to sound too braggy, but i'm probably the best out of our group at breaststroke kick (because i do a lot of biking so i got thunder thighs and my legs are quite strong)

anyway, when we're at swim training, we make four larger lanes and put 3-6 people in each lane, then swim down the left side and sort of stagger the starts so we can all swim more. the boys all cram into lane one (there's like 5 or 6 of them) and then me and my three friends go in lane 2, then the remaining two have slightly younger kids. (there's two groups, one of older kids, so kids year 7 and up, and younger kids, 8yros to 11yros)

so since we're in the lanes with heaps of other people, you put the faster people first and the slower people last. i usually go last, but not for breaststroke.

anyway, alberto always goes first in his lane since he's the fastest, and i went first in my lane (we were doing breaststroke kick). so basically i was faster than him for the breaststroke kick because yk i'm not a tall skinny ass dude who looks like he got stretched, i'm a girl with wide hips and legs, so my kick is quite good. so i beat him to the other end by like, three seconds?

and i stopped at the other end because i thought we were doing one length because ngl i don't listen too well, but then he turned around and went for a second length, and i was like "oh shit" and did the second length. obviously i didn't beat him back, but i caught up lol.

so since we were like ahead of the others, we ditched the kickboards and we both started asking each other how many lengths we were supposed to do because i'd stopped, and he'd seen me stop and was panicking the whole way back because he was ahead and couldn't see anyone in front of him, and i was saying how i was panicking because i didn't realise we were doing two lengths

that was just kinda funny to me because yeah lol

(btw, the other two kids in the other lanes who went first were like 11 and 12 and don't like breaststroke that much, so neither of us had seen what they were doing)

but yeah idk. tbh i could yap some more, but this is already at 1300 words and i'm tired and i have volleyball tmrw night and i'm sick and just a lot so i'm not gonna do that. i'll prolly be back on like thursday night or smth. def gonna continue on sunday

not that you guys'd care too much, because i'm just delusionally obsessing over some guy none of you know, but i love to yap so yk

so thank you if you read all that lmao 😭😭

got any advice on how to even possibly start a talking stage with him?? i'm awkward af. like, i've got his snap already, and i could probably start a snapstreak with him and have it not be totally strange, but idkk

so anyway i'm going to publish this now and completely regret it and not look at it for a while so bye byeee love you alll