Parallels

when do i let go?

Autumn - NIKI

Could be in A or D's POV. Or POV niyo rin charot.

I suggest to listen to the song and read the lyrics before reading. :)

How do we deal with a dying love?

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Do some of relationships really have an expiry? May mga tao ba talagang dadaan minsan sa buhay natin so that we can learn a lesson? Para mahanap nila yung sarili nila and when they finally do, they'll realize na hindi tayo yung gusto nilang makasama?

Am I just a waiting shed? That you would stay under until the storm passes and when the weather is fine again, pwede ka nang umalis and face the world on your own?

Nilagay lang ba ako sa buhay mo so you can have someone to figure things out with?

'Yun lang ba talaga yung role ko sa lahat ng 'to?

I believed you when you told me we're going to make it, lahat nang pinangarap nating magkasama, under the same sheets when we'd rather choose to blurt out all our dreams than to sleep. It's funny 'cause even if we were dreaming a million things, what tops my list was you.

You told me one day, we're going to make a home, a different one from where we grew up, a home where there's no shouting and no walking around eggshells.

You told me we're going to create a home where we can face everything, as long as we're together.

What happened to those promises? When did you start letting go and visualize a different life? One without me in it?

I should have known... I should have known when everytime we're falling apart, ako na lang yung kumukuha ng bawat piraso, trying to glue our relationship together, saving it from a total wreck.

I should have known... when I literally had to beg for you to stay.

I should have known... or maybe I already knew.

Maybe I already knew when I saw the way you looked at me, and I saw a different person.

Maybe I already knew, when you've finally reached your dream and you didn't want me to be there to celebrate with you.

Maybe I already knew when my absence didn't even bother you.

I already knew. Yet, here I am, with all the broken pieces inside me, watching you sleep. I don't even know what tomorrow will bring. Maybe when you open your eyes, you're going to be angry with the fact that I am the one beside you. Or maybe, you wouldn't even bother to look at the other side of the bed anymore.

Totoo ngang hindi na kita kilala, I don't even recognize the person you turned out to be.

They say loving someone means attending a thousand of funerals of the people they used to be. Maybe when the version of you that dreamt with me died, so was the person that used to love me.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring. But my love, all I know is that we're already at the end of the road.

How can I ever let you go?