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chapter 2

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I was still hiding, my legs and my whole body were frozen and I was starting to panic more and more, maybe I'm just hallucinating? But he looked exactly like him...more handsome even-
JESUS GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER!
I washed my face with cold water and took a deep breath, I will just focus on my work for now.

I returned to the bar and steve was nowhere to be seen, they must've left when I was hiding, I wonder if he saw me or not...even if he did he probably doesn't give a fuck, I hope I don't see him again. I was about to return to work when my phone ran and it was Steven, "Hello?" "I have some news!" He sounded excited and I laughed a little, "what you finally found a girlfriend?" "Better! Remember my friend Jonathan, the one I met a few weeks ago, well his brother agreed to work as a personal trainer," I know he's been looking for one for a while now, "oh really that's cool," "He's a bit cold but nothing too bad, and biu, I won't be here tomorrow and I need you to show him around a little," "what? Why me?!" "Well I'm not gonna ask Tim! You're the only one I trust with this mission, please biu!" "Fine! But you'll give me a day off whenever I want," "I already do that" "exactly, that's why I'm accepting, btw I want to ask you, who was the guy accompanying you earlier?" I asked and my heart was racing, "oh that's him, the trainer, bible wichapas,"

All I heard next was loud ringing in my ears, and whatever I was holding in my hands was already shattered on the floor, "Biu! What happened what's that sound?!?!" His screaming got me out of my haze "Nothing I- I will call you later," I hung up and started picking up the shattered glass on the floor, not feeling any pain from the pieces sinking into my skin, I just wanted to go home so badly and my shift was almost over anyway. I got on my bike and started driving, my body was hot and I could barely breathe, I started to feel the pain coming from the cuts in my hand more and more,

𝘽𝙞𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙪𝙩 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 "𝙤𝙬!"
𝙉𝙚𝙭𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙙 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙩𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙥𝙨 𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙖𝙘𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 "𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜?? 𝙎𝙝𝙞𝙩 𝙡𝙚𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙞𝙩" 𝘽𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 "𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙖 𝙨𝙢𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙘𝙪𝙩" 𝙗𝙞𝙪 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙 "𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙨𝙢𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚, 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙞𝙙 𝙠𝙞𝙩," 𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙢...

My head was as chaotic as my heart and I didn't know what to do, I can't run away again, but I can't face him or talk to him, 'God this is so bad'

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After I finished, I went back to the building where my apartment was and it was not far from the hotel, I couldn't stop thinking about the guy I saw earlier, it has to be him, I would recognize him anywhere, in the most crowded rooms, my eyes will see only his perfect figure. After I arrived I lay down on the sofa to think but shortly after my cat started complaining so I knew he must be hungry "alright alright you grumpy old man" I went to the kitchen to make him something to eat but I didn't find anything, I didn't have the time to do grocery shopping today so now neither of us has anything to eat, "guess no rest for me today" "meow!" "Don't yell at me I'm going!" I put on my shoes again and left but as I was walking in the corridor while checking something on my phone, someone came running towards me and hit me so hard, "Ouch!" "I'm sorry are you o-" The moment our eyes met my blood ran cold and my heart dropped to my knees, "B-Biu" he was right in front of me, his eyes were teary and he looked like a mess, but he didn't say anything and just stared at me with a weird look, "Jak!" Someone screamed suddenly and ran to biu, "Oh thank God you're alright, I didn't find you when I returned from my break then I saw the blood on the floor and you suddenly disappeared, aghh I was so worried!" My mind snapped upon hearing the word 'blood' and before I knew it I was checking him with my eyes and there was blood on his white shirt and hand, I was about to say something but Biu finally spoke, not to me, "I'm fine Tim, let's go" he held his hand they walked past me almost running. I wanted to follow him but I was still shocked, I always dreamed of this moment but now that he's in front of me, I don't know what to do or say and...who was that guy? And why did he look so worried?

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We walked inside my apartment and I closed the door harshly, "what's wrong who was that guy?" Tim asked but I couldn't talk, I couldn't even think properly, and then "Oh God jak your nose is bleeding!" He ran to the kitchen while I just dropped to the floor breathing heavily, "I must've exhausted myself too much today," I said and he was now next to me holding a napkin against my nose, "take it easy jak, you look like a mess, did something happen??" I waited till my breathing got normal again and I explained to him, "It's him, the guy from the corridor, and the new trainer Steven hired today, it's him, he's here, after 2 years, and I don't know what to do now," Tim looked confused then his face lit up in realisation "Ohhhh that was him?? No wonder he looked like he saw a ghost, jesus christ bro and is he your neighbour now?" "I think so yeah, God what am I gonna do now Tim!? Steve told me to show him around the hotel tomorrow and I agreed but I didn't know it was him, this is so fucked up" I pulled on my hair in frustration and Tim patted my shoulder, "just calm down, everything will be okay, just act professionally like you always do, you guys are now coworkers so let's start with that, just talk about the important stuff and don't get personal," "I will try, I don't think we will be seeing each other much in work anyway but what if I keep running into him here?" "Then ignore him, or just say good morning and walk away, you don't have to talk to him if it makes you uncomfortable," I know, but it's so unfair, to him, to me, to us, "okay." I said.

Later on I took a shower after Tim left and went to sleep, but every time I closed my eyes he came in front of me, the look on his face earlier was gnawing at my heart, he looked so broken and confused, and did he lose some weight? God I can't believe it's been 2 years, I didn't realise how much I missed him till I saw him again today, every effort I put into moving on from him is now gone, what kind of a sick joke is this??? Of all the people in the world Steve had to pick him! Guess this is just my karma.

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I didn't sleep all night, I couldn't if I wanted to, both my heart and mind wouldn't rest and in constant fight, one pushing me to go talk to him and the other pulling me back, I spent the whole night passing back and forth until the sun rose and I had to get ready for work, I made a quick breakfast, fed my cat then headed outside. I arrived at the hotel and started walking around randomly, I didn't know where the Gyms were and I didn't know whom to ask but then, "khun Wichapas" I turned around and he was standing there, "Good morning," I said, it's the only thing that came to my mind, "I will be showing you around today since Steven is not available, please follow me," there's something wrong, his voice and attitude, they're so different, he started walking and I followed him, we walked around the place and he made few comments from time to time, all while maintaining the professional mask,

We reached the gyms area and they were so luxurious and fancy, "These Gyms are mostly used by the VIP clients, hence where you will be working, the public Gyms are downstairs and can be used by the other clients or normal people who get a subscription, any questions?" "N-no," "alright then, I will leave now," he turned around but before I could stop myself I grabbed his arm, "Biu-" he removed it quickly and stepped back, "please call me build, and don't touch me with no consent again," why is he being like this???? This is not the biu I know and love, I stood there speechless as he left the room, and I thought for a few minutes

Fine then, Khun Build Jakapan, you may have forgotten that I know you better than yourself but I didn't, and if this is how you wanna play, then you got it.

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I went to the nearest bathroom I could find and opened the cold water then poured some on my face, I was breathing so fast as if I was holding it in for hours, "fucking hell I'm a piece of shit, why is this happening whyy!" I feel so guilty but also hurt, seeing him and talking to him after all this time is opening the wounds and refreshing the memories and I hate it, I hate it so fucking much! Wait till I get my hands on you steve!!!!

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