I Can't Keep Up

Part 4 ❤

Vanessa POV

Sometimes I wonder Is this real love or is this my insecurities of me not being able to find someone better?

I can't believe my life right now, as soon as things are going right something fucking goes left. And of course, one of those problems are currently being Michael. My emotions are everywhere at this point. Honestly, I'm not surprised about what happen today with Michael. This would be the tenth time I went through something like this with him. I am the stupid one, because I have allowed this to happen to me previous times.

I'm upset and fueled with anger, and I will get my revenge. I'm tired of everyone using me and my kindness.

As I'm driving home, I thought about my encounter with Jay.

He seems so sweet and polite. I loved the way he was talking to me and calming me down making me feel a bit better. I felt a small connection with him and, although he is Michael cousin, I wondered what it would be like with him. Maybe its delusion...but I don't care.

I pulled up and parked in my driveway. I got out my car and grabbed my work bag and water bottle.

When I stepped in door, I was greeted by nobody other than Tracy my mother.

''What time did you get off VANESSA?! I told you I had somewhere to go, and I needed the car. You know my Infiniti is still in the shop!'' she said angrily to me.

Typical, I can never catch a damn break, and all I wanted to do was go in the house chill and smoke some weed in my den.

''Mom, I told you I was getting off around 5 today.'' I said to her. I swear her ass is always getting on damn nerves.

I just kept walking up to my room I faintly heard her talking to me, but I ignored her anyway. I didn't want any more stress today, I'd had enough. I walked in my room I tossed my shit to the side and put my phone on the charger. I lay down on the bed and thought about tomorrow night events with Jay fine ass. I hope he ready for me like I'm ready for him.

I need an outfit for tomorrow, because I need to leave a good impression. It's now 6pm and the mall is open until 10pm.

''Let me text Amann and she what her lil ass doing right now.'' I said to myself.

Vanessa: Hey Boo, what you getting into right now?

Bookie Amann: Hey Stinka butt! I'm chilling right now. what's up?

Vanessa: Wanna go to the mall with me pooh?

Bookie Amann: Ok let's hurry up before it closes, I need some new sneaks anyway.

Vanessa: okkay, I will meet you there in 20 pooh.

Bookie Amann: alright stink, see you then.

I got up quickly and put on one of my Victoria Secret suits with some Jordan's. I rushed outside and passed my mom before her ass could even say something.

Within 20 minutes I arrived at the mall I parked my Kia in the handicap spot thanks to my grandma. I walked in and the mall was packed as fuck, it was so many kids and parents for the back-to-school shopping. I saw Amann at the Auntie Anne's and walked over to her.

''Hey boo what's up?'' I said to her

''Nothing, what you been up to and why you drag my ass out here knowing I got to watch my grandmovaa girl?'' she said while smacking her greasy ass lips to me. I looked at her like she was crazy.