Londiwe and Londeka

chapter 1

Have you ever suffered and  apologized for something you had no control over ...well that my life I mean ever since I was born everyone seemed to blame me for everything including mom ...My name is Londeka Zungu your typical 17 year old born and raised in Mlazi I don't know my father and I've never met him as for mother she's a shebeen Queen ran away home because she fell pregnant well I don't know the exact story though but she hates me no scratch that she despise me sometimes I even wonder if she's my boilogical mother but then I look exactly like her.I get in the house I find her in the living room drinking...
"where were you?"she asked I can see she's livid
"I was out"I replied emotionlessly that how I am "out where whoring yourself around "she spat again disgusted by the thought "Mama"icried she started beating me with sjambok she wasn't going to stop anytime soon i keep crying begging apologizing but nothing works she will only stop once she's satisfied
"Get out of my sight before ii kill you bastard"I quickly got myself up from the floor I was glad there wasn't any blood so I crawl myself to my room I got to the shower straight I let the water flow in my body"God what did I ever do wrong for me to deserve this "tears stream mercilessly in my face ...I got out shower and guess what I've got some wounds I will tend to them later I just want to sleep right now since I've got no work yes you heard that right I'm currently working in my mom's shebeen to provide for myself..once my head meet my soft pillow I immediately fall asleep it's been a long day i didn't even get to eat great just great....

Somewhere in Mhlanga
Narrated

"Mom " says a beautiful young lady as she steps down stairs to have some breakfast she Finds her mom alone "Morning sweetie"she greets her daughter"where's dad?"she asked and her mom kept quiet oh she should have known not to ask that man is a workaholic he is always at work he has no time for his family infact everyone in this house has no time for anyone Londiwe has given up on being a happy family so she finishes her breakfast and took her bag and went out without a goodbye to her mom ...her driver drives to the gate of school and she finds her friends waiting for her "Ladies and gentlemen the Queen Londie London has graced us with her presence"Mandisa who is known as Mandy announced and bowed to Londiwe others laughed "you can be so extra sometimes Mandy "says Naledi "Good Morning"Londiwe greets and they just look at her shocked"why do you look like you've seen a ghost?"she asked Mandy said"you just greeted us are you sure you are ok?"it was londiwe's turn to laugh "ohh I'm good let's go we are going to be late I need to go to my locker first "they left Londiwe went to her locker and she doesn't find her accounting book "looks like I forget it at home"Mandy smirked evilly"don't worry we'll get it.

Londeka

I woke up in the morning with a headache I get up and I shower quickly I need to be at school in 45minutes I get dressed fast I came out of my room to find something to eat in the kitchen and I find someone else and I froze "sweetheart it's been so long didn't you miss me ?"it's Mandla one of my Mom's boys they like to sexually harrass me I can't do anything about it we all know my mom won't believe me "Are you just going to stand there and not give daddy a hug"He tried to come closer and I ran out of the house straight to school lapho ngilambile selokhu ngagcina ukudla izolo maybe I'll just eat igwinywa eskoleni. I walk till I get to school at least I'm not late and I am doing science I'm currently in grade 11top of my class I work hard really hard so that I will get out of this filthy township and secure a future for myself...well uLondeka akanamngani futhi akanandaba cause friends are always fake and I didn't expect to have friends knowing that I'm cast out at home and community"penny for your thoughts Miss Zungu"shit I zone out while I was in life science class "I'm sorry Miss"that it I won't explain myself they know better not piss me off I have a very bad temper whenever mom had beaten me I will snap at everyone even the principal the only thing that's saves me is that I'm smart the bell rings oh great I need to eat " can I have two fatcake ,two cheese and 1russian "I take my food I walk towards the back of the school I always sit here alone and eat just when I thought I finally have peace"oh here she is " "the famous slut" "homewrecker" they spat disgustedly you see mom's sin sleeping with married men and I'm the one who is suffering for it and it's fine I do what I always do best I take my things and leave "yes leave you whore"by the way those boys are doing Matric no one dares to talk to me at my Class I'm untouchable there ...I sit at my class guess what it's maths period I hate it with my whole heart right now Mrs Bhengu is busy explaining theorem of Pythagoras and I'm feeling sleepy she's pregnant by the way the bell rings the kids in my class jump ready to go "don't forget the assignment due date"Mrs Bhengu shouts oh no I haven't started it yet so I quickly get home I change to my waitress uniform on my way to the door something catches my eye in bin tissues full of blood what the hell !? Mom is sick I know she despise me but she's the only one I have what would happen if she no no no relax Londe nothing will happen to her oh Jesu Ndodana ka Mariya I don't go to church but I know Jesus is Mary's son I get in the shebeen and it's packed I guess it's the month end I see mom and signals me to come to her "Go back home do your homeworks and Cook you're no longer working here "what the hell!? she sounds weak"but mother..."she cuts me off "Go back home Londeka "wow ok today I'm not a bastard child I obey I went back home and I cooked first and I started my maths assignment it's due Friday and today it's Wednesday. 

By the way we are living in a 6room house "Londeka Londe!!" Mom shouts in the dining room "I'm coming"I tidy books and went out of my room to the dining room "Hlala phansi sidle "I looked at shocked I pinch myself maybe I'm dreaming kunini nghlale ngidla ama leftovers ngishawe namhlanj kthiwa angidle "Londeka" I come back to reality and it feels weird mom calling my name she finished her food"kumnandi syabonga Londeka ngisaphindela eShebeen " I was shocked again right there I realized she was not drunk and she seemed weak Lord what's going on she went out I cleaned the dishes and I went to sleep cause I had no homeworks and I finished my assignment .I woke up to the sound of someone groaning and he was naked it was Mandla I screamed "help help !!" He closed my mouth using his hand "shut up bitch I've waited long enough today I'm taking what's mine "it was when I realized I was naked too ohh God my Virginity ..

They always get to do this to me to satisfy themselves I remember when they started to put their things in my ass I was barely 14 that time and I couldn't do anything the fact that I have a curved body wasn't helping tears kept streaming in my face he was about to rape me when the door bust open revealing mom fuming oh I'm in trouble surprisingly she slaps Mandla and took him out of my room along with his clothes she keeps of beating with the sjambok when did she take that I don't know what's going on I thought she was going to shout and beat me for being a whore she came back to my room and I was still crying she embraced me while she was crying too I froze mom has never hugged me heck ! I've never seen her cry before "I'm sorry baby I've been a horrible mother "she apologized but it was too late for that "I'm sorry baby I'm sorry"she kept mumbling sorry then she asked "are you okay?"I nodded I was too stunned to use my voice"are you still a virgin?" I was shocked again but I nodded anyway " oh thank God"she seemed relieved and weak again and again she wasn't drunk "go take a shower"

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Hey guys this is my first novel please bear it with me I'm not professional but Iam Trying don't forget to vote.Thank you lots of love.