Unexpected

Lazy day 4

Hope pov:
This is gonna be long, I feel bad. Joise is struggling to stay awake and keep food down. She's been losing the sense of time, sometimes she forgets where she is and it's those meds, I wish she didn't have to take  them but from what she recently disclosed I can't give her my blood.
This fucking sucks and I'm not even the one who's sick, I'm just on standby for Christ sake. I've just been sitting in that damn chair and waiting and watching her incase she needs me for something,she wakes up and starts to wonder where I am and if she can't see me or find me she starts to freak out.

No one pov:
Joise is sleeping but she starts to wake up she's worried that hope left the room. She sits up and starts to look around the room but her vision is blurry
J: HOPE, where are you??* interally panicking *
Hope left the room to get water and a bigger bowl and it was a big mistake.
J: Hope ??? I have to find her.. I have to find her.
Hope isn't hearing any of this she's busy on her mission to get what Joise needs
Joise gets out of bed and she is tripping over herself, she can barely stand up so she decides to crawl til she can find hope. Joise had a nightmare where hope was murder and it was her fault that she got her killed.

Joise pov:
She's dead omg she's dead, I have to find her because it can't be real right ?!
I don't want it to be real please god don't let it be real, it was so scary, it was Ryan he was chasing me and I thought I could run but I wasn't fast enough but I found her and she told me to run and she was gonna hold him off and as soon as I ran I heard her scream.. and I turn back and by the time I got there shes was dead.. Ryan was standing over her corpse.. and than he went after me.. I woke up before he could kill me.. but the damage was done...
I have to find her and make sure she's okay I can't live with myself if she's dead and it's my fault.. I should have let that man kill me and it would have all been over...

No one pov:
Joise is out of their room by now and she's just crawling as fast as she can, she can't rest til she find hope. She's losing her mind over the girl, hope can't die that way, it can't be joise fault..
Joise is to the stairs now and she's bout to start sliding down to get to the bottom til she see a red head walking by the courtyard.
J: HOPE, omg your okay!!
H: joise what are you doing out of bed and why are you on the stairs ?
J: hope come here please, like now !!
H: baby what's wrong* she's walking to the step joise stop on *
J: your okay, thank god your okay * she immediately grabs hope and gives her a bone crushing hug *
H: baby I can't breathe * joise has a death grip on her torso *
J: ohh I'm sorry * she lets go *.. I had to make sure you were okay..
H: baby what happened, you look like you saw a ghost ? I'm alright I just had to grab you a few things. Did you crawl all the way here baby ??
J: y—yea I couldn't stand.. * her vision keeps going in and out *
H: baby what happened? Why did you get out of bed ?
Hope picks Joise back up and she carries her back to their room, Hope lays her down in bed but joise isn't letting go, she still has a death grip on her and she's buried her head in hopes chest.

H: baby what's wrong??
J: it's nothing...
H: baby please tell me, you're worrying me and I wonder if it was a nightmare?
J: ... yea...
H: what happened love, why were you worried if I was okay baby? Was it because of your dream?
J: yea it was..
H: baby tell me what happened
J: I thought... i thought you died and it was my fault * she starts sobbing *
H: awww baby don't cry, it's okay, I'm okay.
  Joise won't look at her and she won't stop crying and she hasn't let her go yet either.
H: baby shhhh, it's okay I'm okay I promise. * she starts to give her kisses and holds her tighter *
J: I thought I was the reason why Ryan killed you ... I watch you die.. I thought I lost you... don't leave me please...
H: I won't love I got you. * she takes one of joise hands and places over her heart*
H: baby can you feel that ?
J: ...yea...
H: see baby I'm alive and I'm okay, there's no need to cry. I promise I won't leave you alone again and if I have to protect you from everything including yourself than I will, I'm right here love it's okay.
J: i -i was so scared that i lost you and I won't have been able to live with myself if i was the reason you died...
H: i know baby i know, it's okay jo your okay I'm okay. Everything is okay baby, come on we gotta take your meds and I'll let you pick the movie.
J: o—okay..
 
Joise never let hope go for the rest of the night, she insisted for hope to hold her too, and she didn't further talk about the nightmare either, no matter how many times hope asked, Joise never said anything else about it.

Hope pov;

   Well I'm a dumbass, I shouldn't have left her alone, it was stupid, I was stupid. She had so much fear in her eyes til she saw me. She looked so relieved that she found me. It was kinda nice for her to react like that but also it was really heartbreaking. She said she was the reason I got murder, I don't think that I'm a tribid and would have came back doesn't help in this matter, she lost all logic, all reality. I have to get one of the guards to help with her, I can't leave her again or knowing her she go on an another unplanned adventure and she can't be doing that right now. she hasn't let me go either, she has such a tight grip on me I can see her knuckles turning white. She falls asleep on me eventually and she wakes up I accidentally move. It's like she's making sure her nightmare wasn't real like this is some altered reality. It's really sad, I feel bad I did thus to her if I was there after her nightmare maybe she would've calm down faster and be more relaxed but no I had to play hero. God damn it hope you're a fucking idiot!!