Hello Mrs. Chen, i hope you are having a wonderful day.
By now you know that Daniel broke up with me, i know this isn't supposed to be your problem, but i didn't write this to announce our problems to you.
I love your son and i always will, you guys did an amazing job raising your children i want to thank you for opening your arms to me into your amazing and welcoming family, i will be always thankful for being so nice to me, and i appreciate the gifts you gave me, i still keep them with me.
I actually wanted to talk to you about Daniel, the last time he talked to his therapist, the therapist said that he should go to the psychiatrist as soon as possible since he was experiencing other issues, he always refuse to go back to the meds or go to therapy cuz he said it would make him go into reality or something like that, i want him to get better, and i know he is a grown man, but he trusts you guys the most and his brother.
During our whole relationship we broke up around 4 to 5 times, he broke up with me all those times, i also explain to his brother the reason, and i always encourage him to talk to you guys in case he had questions about how to be in a healthy relationship, since we always were expressing how much we wanted to be together till we were old.
He was talking to other girls during the relationship and he even was involved romantically with someone named Nikki. He chose me over her, but he kept saying how he didn't believe me i love him.
He actually never believed i did, even though i was constantly trying to show him his worth and reassure him about my feelings towards him, he had constant thoughts about suicide since he mentioned to me why was he bothering to even exist if that's all he was.
In the last few days he kept accusing me of something i never did, i was always loyal to him even when we were apart something he never did, he always said he was afraid to do things for me or stuff because he was afraid i was going to hurt him, i told him that Love is amazing and that what we had was real but that if he is going to let fear control his life he is never going to live properly, he was constantly saying that he was so in love with me that he kept thinking about me even at work, i try to explained to him that i was in the same situation since i also love him, he believes that love is a weakness and that if he lets love controls him he would be weak and he was constantly afraid when he was with me because he felt so weak of love that he thought it was a bad thing.
I keep telling him that love is not a weakness but a strength. I try to be nice and patient with him as much as i could but all he did was hurt me and never take my feelings into consideration to the point that i was crying almost every single day and he obviously did not believe me, because he has very low selfstem he never thought someone could love him the way he does to me.
i know he is never going to try because of this mindset and i really don't want to be bad mouth by him, i really tried.
on the last days he kept saying that i was acting cold or distant and i was but just a little but i hope you understand i did it to protect my heart and i still cried when he broke up with me.
I am not contacting you through this letter just to burden you but so you can know the truth, i wish him all the peace and i hope he finds it with someone that can actually gives him peace. I hope he becomes happier with time and he prioritize himself to heal so he doesn't hurt any more girls.
He says he wants me but he won't fight for me so i am as confused as you guys are, he says i am his peace and i still don't know why he is not coming for me.
If it's not much to ask and i know it would be hard, but it would be nice to have a heart felt talk to him about love and for him to learn how to accept his feeling as a strength as not as a negative thing in his life.
Please i wish family Chen THE BEST and i hope Daniel to be happy and at peace with himself, please stay healthy with this weather and in your future life, i am thankful to the Chen's for taking me with warmth i would always be eternally grateful and if you guys wish to come to snooze for breakfast i work at the pima crossing location and shea, i would gladly give you guys my discount, and again Thank you.
Sincerely with Love,
Brenda.
