The Impossible love of star

Chapter one : A girl named after the star

MANDY HURRY UP YOU GOING TO BE LATE YELLED STAR!!!!
HELLO MY NAME IS STAR IM A SIMPLE GIRL BUT IF YOU ASK MY PARENTS THEY WILL TELL YOU IM THE MOST INSURBORDINATE PERSON IN THIS WORLD BUT WE CAN'T CHANGE OUR PARENTS RIGHT BUT STRANGERS THINK IM THE MOST NICEST PERSON IN THE WORLD FOR THE WORLD IM LIKE AN ANGEL BUT FOR MY PARENTS AND FAMILY IM THE DEMON AND THE EVIL. ALL MY LIFE I HEARD A LOT OF WHY NOT ACTING LIKE YOUR COUSIN , WHY YOU SO STUPID , WHY YOU ACT LIKE A FOOL, WHY YOU ARE SO WORTHLESS, WHY WHY WHY THIS WHAT MY CHILDHOOD RESULT! EVEN WHEN I RAN AWAY FROM MY COUNTRY BACK HOME I THOUGHT IT WILL BE OKAY THERE HAVE'NT  BE ONE SINGLE DAY I FELT LIKE I WAS LOVED, I ALWAYS FELT SADNESS , PAIN, AND ANGER I NEVER FELT LOVE MAYBE THAT'S WHY I LOOK LIKE IM BROKEN BECAUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH I DON'T LOOK LIKE  IM BROKEN BECAUSE I'M BROKEN. FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE CURIOUS MY NAME IS STAR I WAS BORN IN AFRICA (WEST AFRICA) PRECISELY IN (LITTORAL-CAMEROON) AND TRUST ME IT WASNT COOL AT ALL. I WAS BORN LIKE A STAR BUT THE THING IS I WASNT TREATED LIKE A STAR ! I'M SURE YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW I WAS RAISED ? SO I GREW UP WITH SOME LOVE UN TIL THE AGE OF 5 THEN MY OUMA LEFT FOR THERE COUNTRY FAR FAR AWAY FROM ME. THEN HER FAMILY TOOK ME IN. I WAS STILL A LITTLE GIRL WHO DOESNT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I PLAYED COOL TILL I TURN 6 YEARS OLD . AS A 6 YEARS OLD GIRL I WASNT HAPPY AT ALL BECAUSE SOME THING WAS OBVIOUSLY MISSING , AND WHAT WAS MISSING WAS MOTHERS LOVE I COULNT HAVE THAT BECAUSE MY OUMA WASN'T THERE. SO ONE OF THE BROTHERS ON MY MOM SIDE TOOK ME IN WITH HIS WIFE AND HER KIDS. AT FIRST I WAS HAPPY THAT I WILL LIVE WITH A GIRL WHO HAS THE SAME AGE AS ME AND SHE WAS MY COUSIN AND HER LITTLE BROTHER TOO BUT HER MOTHER DIDN'T LIKE ME AT ALL Y'ALL KNOW THE FEELING WHEN SOMEONE TAKE YOU IN BUT DOESNT  ACCEPT YOU WITH HER HEART RIGHT? I HAD THAT FEELING IT WASN'T ONLY A FEELING IT WAS REAL.ANYWAY THAT YEAR THINGS STARTED GET COMPLICATED FOR ME BECAUSE I STARTED SEEING  THINGS IN MY DREAM BUT I COULDN'T TELL BECAUSE I WAS A LITTLE GIRL DEPRESS WITHOUT HER MOM NEAR HER WHO COULDNT DO A THING FOR HERSELF BUT GUESS WHAT IT'S PART OF LIFE. AND AT THAT TIME I COULDN'T FOCUS IN SCHOOL BECAUSE OF THE COMPLETE DIFFERENT LANGUAGE BARRIER FOR ME AND ME BEING IN A NEW SCHOOL AS WELL . I WAS TIMID , AFRAID, UNPREPAID,AND ALONE. YOU WILL SAY AT LEAST I GOT MY UNCLE RIGHT BUT THATS WASNT IT SINCE MY DEAR UNCLE COULDN'T SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE HIS WIFE WAS THE BOSS. AFTER THE OUMA OF MY OUMA SAW WHAT WERE HAPPENING TO ME SHE TOOK ME IN AND TOOK CARE OF ME. DURING THAT PERIOD WITH MY GRAND-OUMA I KEPT SEEING THINGS IN MY DREAM, AND THEY SPOKE  DIFFERENT LANGUAGES IN MY DREAM THAT I WASNT FAMILIAR WITH . MY GRAND-OUMA ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT I ALWAYS SPOKE IN MY DREAMS AND SOMETIMES FOUND ME CRYING , ONE DAY I DREAMED OF ME SPEAKING TO A CAT DURING THE BLOODY MOON , IN MY DREAM I WAS ONLY 8 YEARS OLD. HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO EXPLAIN SUCH THING? HOW CAN YOU EXPLAIN THIS DREAM AS A 8 YEARS OLD GIRL? THEY WILL THINK YOU WATCH TOO MUCH MOVIES AND TOO MUCH SHIT IN THE TV ! SO I KEPT MY MOUTH SHUT ABOUT MY DREAMS , TILL I STARTED MIDDLE SCHOOL AND WENT TO MY DAD'S HOME IN THE OTHER CITY.TO BE HONEST I WAS HAPPY FOR A SHORT MOMENT WONDERING WHY YOU ASKED ? I WAS HAPPY BECAUSE I COULD STAY WITH MY SISTER AND MY BROTHERS AND ALSO WITH MY DAD AND MY STEP OUMA. I WAS SO HAPPY AND JOYFUL BECAUSE IT WAS REALLY GOOD I HAD A WONDERFUL TIME AND A GREAT TIME THERE TILL ONE NIGHT A GUY CAME IN OUR ROOM MY STEP SISTER, MY SISTER AND I COME CLOSE TO ME. I WAS ASLEEP BUT NOT IN A DEEP STATE OF SLEEP I RECALL THIS MAN TOUCHING ME AND PUTTING HIS MANHOOD IN MY PANTIES BUT HE DOESNT  PENETRATE  ME. THAT HOW  I BECAME THE DEVIL THAT PEOPLE ALWAYS REFERRED ME AS BECAUSE AFTER THAT  NIGHT THE SAME THINGS KEPT HAPPENING AGAIN AND AGAIN, AND AT THAT  POINT HE BEGAN TO KISSED ME AND TOUCH ME MORE FREQUENTLY  AND I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE IT HAPPENED TO FREQUENTLY TO THE POINT I STARTED ENJOYING HIS TOUCHES. SOME MIGHT SAY IM SICK AND TROUBLED !!! YEAH I'AM BECAUSE HE WAS THE FIRST ONE WHO EVER GAVE ME THE ATTENTION,LOVE,CARED I ALWAYS WANTED , IM NOT HERE TO MAKE ANY EXCUSES FOR THE ENJOYMENT I FELT BUT I WAS HAPPY AND ALSO I WAS 8 I DIDNT KNOW WHAT LOVE WAS AND FOR ME AS A 8 YEARS OLD THAT WAS LOVE FOR ME. AND THAT TIME CHANGED ME FOR EVER BECAUSE AFTER THAT WE HAD A MAID WITH HER SON HE WAS WAY YOUNGER THAN ME AND I KISS HIM UNDER THE BLANKET. MY BIG STEP SISTER FIND ME AND SCOLDED ME AND THAT WAS IT I THOUGHT I WOULD BEEN GROUNDED BUT NO SHE DIDNT SAY ANTHING TO OUR PARENTS. AND WE OFTEN WENT  TO SEE PASTORS AND THEY ALWAYS PRAYED FOR ME