vent book. do not read if you are triggered.

I'm so sorry.

Look. If you know me and you are reading this part of the story, i am so sorry. I'm sorry for not always being there, i'm sorry for being annoying, i'm sorry if i ever hurt you, I'm sorry. For everything. You deserve better and that's why i'm writing this. I need to get this feeling out of me because it's slowly starting to kill me. I never meant for any of our arguments to escalate or worse. I'm so so sorry. I understand if you don't want to forgive me and that's fine. It's up to you. I just need to let you know that i am truly sorry. I'm honoured that i met you and we somehow made a friendship or more but you deserve better. I mean it. You are literally one of the best things that ever happened to me. That's why i'm still alive to this day. But i may not be soon. That's why i'm writing this to say, i'm sorry. <3

I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE I WANT TO DIE SOMEONE FUCKING KILL ME ALREADY! I WANT TO DIE.