solitude

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I've given up.

I'm sorry mother, father.
My heart feels empty, I regret my wishes.
I regret it all. I miss you.

The day I was taken away it felt as if I found freedom yet my demise begun, I feel emptiness.

Where is my purpose, father?

Aren't you ashamed?

Mother you I can't feel anything.

Help me escape this hell I'm stuck in.. Where is everyone? I wanna go home, but my home is my family.

I love you, please bring me back..

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Miroslav placed the notebook in his backpack alongside with the half dried pen, this world had many pens, notebooks available for free.

Yet no seller.

"I can't steal." He lied to himself and continued on his journey through the now empty streets.

It felt hard to feel emotions, perhaps it was insanity. Like the empty streets with no crawlers felt like a forest with no animals.

"Help me." He muttered to himself, why was God so sinful?

What is sin if there's no sinner? Nobody else to blame.

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To begin off,

A few things I'd like to tell you myself, I'm Miroslav. Once the life of the party, a carefree man, now stuck in this hell.

Hell? Hell had sinners get this world. This world was empty, like myself.

It all began march 18th, 2013. The night I made a dumb wish, the night that I shouldn't have occured. I was sent to this empty world, everything here is free, paradise yet.. It's been years since I heard a voice, seen my family. Maybe there was more to life than just luxury and these free amenities, I was foolish.

I wish to go back, see my family soon, is mother okay? Has father been sleeping well? Someone answer.

My lungs feel heavy, I can't seem to feel where I'm going, each wind feels like a whisper from someone. I hope it is.

Forgive me Lord for I've sinned, is this reality? Is this how to wish to punish me for my greed? How foolish.

Utterly ridiculous.