If only you could see my heart https://archiveofourown.org/works/55134793/chapt

awaken,my love

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After that night,their "relationship" was stronger.They made sure the little free time they had was spent texting,calling or facetiming each other.Even though they had not defined whatever they had and hadnt seen each other in pretty much a whole month or so they were both loyal to each other.
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Gavi was losing patience.This whole thing with Jude has been going on for months now and he hasnt made a move to make their relationship exclusive.Be boyfriends and atleast make it be known to their friends and family.He was overthinking everything.Did he only want him for sex and a good time??did he not have enough friends in spain that he only looked at him as a friend??Did he do this with all of his friends??Was he having sex with other people??Gavis head was going to explode.

"Code SOS" he text the group chat he had with fermin and Pedri,then waited for them to react.

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"Bellingham??since when??" Asks Pedri.He was so shocked.He has been teasing Gavi for months now after he drunkenly confensed to having a crush on the guy but actual sex and dates was too much for him.

"well,since the new york party"

"Woow"Fermins says just as shocked if not more than Gavi.

They both listen as Gavi tells them of how happy he is and how great Jude is.If they didnt cut him off,the would praise him for days.After he had finished telling his friends,they both hugged him and seemed to genuinely be happy for him.

"So you guys dont care that he is a madridist?"

"GAVI,if you dont care how can we??" Fermin says with a mockkng tone and gavi throws a cushon on him.

"Sorry" he laughs "As long as your happy" pedri says smiling.

As they leave and are gving each other a good night hig,Pedri whispers to him"Ive seen how your eyes shine when you talk about jude,if i were you,i would make the first move There is no rules in these things"

Gavi just smiles ands whispers "Thank you" back.

This was the type of motivation he needed to ask Jude to be his boyfriend.

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"Iam going to ask Gavi to be my boyfriend" Jude says excutely as he waa facetiming his brother who was back in england.

"Thank God,finally..I can stop calling you a coward now"Jobe answers mockingly
Jude just rolls his eyes
"I cant wait to finally tell him i love him,like i have never loved anybody outside of you guys and my friends,iam gone man"

"awwww,happy for you man"

After the call.Jude couldn't wait for the 3 days period he had until he could see Gavi again.He really couldnt wait.

When he goes back to his messages,he finds a single "We need to talk" message from Gavi and his heart sank.What did he mean by that?? What was going on??a few seconds ago he was at an all time high and now he felt like a knife just cut through his heart and he couldnt breath Not in a"Gavi takes mu breath away type of not breathing but in a iam going to die type.of no breathing.

He fidgets through his contacts in his phone so that he can call him immediately.He was scared as hell.

"Hey Pablo,you good.."Jude says as soon as Gavi answers the phone

"Iam great Judith,how are you"?? As soon as Jude hears that,he breath and relaxes a little.This is what Gavi and his brother uses to mock him and even though it would annoy him when he would call him that,at this very moment he was happy he did.

"iam scared" Jude blurts out.

"Why??Why are you scared??*Gavi asks with panic in his voice

"cause nobody says"we need to talk " and its all fine" he says with a pout.

Gavi just laughs.

"Sorry i said it like that,i just needed us to talk"

"Okay,great..now i should breath.."Jude exagarates his breathing in and out which makes Gavi laugh even more.

"Idiot"he says through laughter.

Even though Gavi had planned to ask Jude the question he just couldnt.He wasnt strong enough for all that.it was going to wait until they saw each other again.Has was not looking forward to the Longest 3 days of his life.