If only you could see my heart https://archiveofourown.org/works/55134793/chapt

Iam so Into You

Jude saw Gavi during warm up and everything his mum had talked to him about disappeared.He didnt want to talk to Gavi,He was Angry at him.He wanted to scream at him.He wanted to scream at him for ruining his mental health.For not responding like a man to His DMs telling him to never text him again.He was Angry.

Gavi on the other hand just made it a point to not make eye contact with the guy.He was here to work and thats all he was going to do.He could feel the nerves creep up on him but he was strong.He was going to get through this and be mature about it.Everything was going to be okay.

WRONG!!The game had started 30mins ago and the tension between him and Jude could be cut with a knife.The first time Jude shoved him for no reason Gavi ignored it.It happens in football all the time.The adrineline is high and you have to act quick.The second time however it was deliberate.He felt it.

"PUTA" Gavi says standing up from when he fell

"COWARD" Jude reciprocates.

"Stupid ass Immature Bitch"Jude whispers so that Gavi was the only person who can hear him.

"Bet you go around sleepimg with everybody then throws them away like the whore that you are"
At this point Gavi was now angry.He got where Jude was coming from but this was too far.He went to were Jude was standing and shoves him so hard he fell to the ground.Jude out of shock,tackles Gavi to the ground using his feet.The ref saw all this happen and blows his whistle.

He shows both of them a Red card .Their team mates just looks at them beweirded while the fans boo.Gavi cant believe the game he was going to redeem himself had gone from bad to worse and all because of Jude.

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They both made their way down the tunnel embarrased as fuck.They acted like kids.5 year old kids who resolted to shoving and insulting when they were frustrated.

Jude can see Gavi wipping tears from his eyes as he makes his way to the bathroom.He cant help but feel his heart ache.He fucked up.All the anger he had when he saw him during warm up was now replaced with a feeling that he couldnt process.He wanted to hug him,comfort him,apologize.He started this pettiness after all.

He followed Gavi in the bathroom.He can hear the sobs coming from one of the stalls and whispers.

"Iam sorry"

"Get the fuck away from me" Gavi screams

"I will not.You and I are going to talk" jude responds calmly.

"Then i will just be in here forever then"

"Challenge accepted.It will be nice for our team mates to come here during half time and see this " He scolfs

"Shit" Gavi groans,opens the door and goes to wash his hands. "Follow me" he says and Jude follows behind him like a lost puppy.

"So.."

Jude starts to talk as they sit down in an office that seem to be too big to be Xavis and Too small to be Laportas.

"Iam sorry..for shoving you..for what i said,i dont know what got into me" Gavi just listens.He doesnt know if he should let his pride win or be an adult about it and apologies for his part as well.He choses the lattar.

"Iam sorry too,i shouldnt have shoved you to the ground.."

"Well you are known for being a lil aggressive" Jude laughs trying to lighten the mood. He notices Gavi standing up and he goes in front of him.

"Sorry,that was a bad joke.Can we talk..for real??" Gavi rolls his eyes and goes "sure".

Jude thinks this might just be the most beautiful boy he has ever seen.The feeling he had after that night in New york hits him like a truck.Once gain,we was in big trouble. "What happened with you??you never seem to get my messages.." He phrases it in a way to not make Gavi uncomfortable.

There is a huge silence in the room then Gavi just blurts out. "Because i like you.." "Whaaaaaat?"Jude is shocked.He had a lot of theories on why Gavi just went cold on him but never this. "Yap,iam sorry"Gavi says "Are you apologising for liking me" "Yap" "Well i will not apologies"Says Jude matter of factly,looking Gavi straight in the eye.

"You already did" Gavi snots

"For liking you back??no,i will not apologies for that.I love that i like you" Jude says smiling

"Whaaat??" It was Gavis turn to be shocked now

"You think i double DM people i just had a one night stand with?? Hahaha bffr Gavi,i like you,ive liked you since the Nap Room"

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As much as this is enough information for both of them to process Jude is still curious on why Gavi was ghosting him??liking him cant be enough a reason.

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"Well,you play for Madrid,friends with Vini,your fans hate me Etc Etc"

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Jude laughs."Well to be fair,your fans hate me too" now Gavi was laughing.

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Jude gets up,stretches his hand over for Gavi to hold,lifts him up too close to his face fo his liking then kisses him.

They melt into this hungry needy kiss.They needed this.Gavi shoves his tongue in Judes mouth and Jude moans.This is all he has been thinking about for two months straight.This is what he deserves.

They seperate due to lack of Air.Their lips swollen,skin flashing with a bright red.

"We should get back,i dont want them to look for us during half time"

"Yah" Jude answers unsurely.

Gavi smiles at him,and gives him short kiss then walks out of the office.

The game ended goalless but Gavi couldn't care less He was Happy.something about Jude and telling him how he feels,and knowing that he feels the exact same way made him very Happy.

That night,in his hotel room in Barcelona Jude gets a DM.

"2***6889387619,Call me if you want" Jude just smiles.