I'm Not OK And No One Cares

aayy to much has happend

Hah so luke broke up with maddy go me and got with me oficialy all three of us me luke and lousie all three of us together maddy wasn't happy ofc but yk we move

Then three days later nvm we don't move yk not usr eif I mentioned it a probably did last time but the one maddy cheated on luke with Toby yeh he told me to ask luke if he regrets being with me so I said no bc I was scared luke would say yes but tobin convinced me so I did

Shocker alert luke did indeed regret it and broke up with me The day before my birthday which was fun then I found out from tobin that lukehad asked out maddy again and another shocker guys she said yes

I had about 50 mental breakdowns as one does but yk can't do much had a huge fight with luke but I can't even do much bc it was so predictable so had a huge go at maddy instead I obviously won bc I always do

Then yesterday which was my bday me and Louise still tg after all this btw bc we move we move got into another fight with maddy bc obvi me and luke had sent pics to eachother nothing inappropriate just outfit checks and to see what the other looked like my fav pic of him was him in a black suit his face wasn't in it but his hands and suit were and he looked fit af

I made that my pfp to be salty and petty to luke and maddy bc yes I was annoyed just find out it was not luke and was none other then toby I and been fangirling over toby and had him as my wallpaper wtf I tried to say sm about it but ofc maddy had to get involved

We had yet another fight ofc I won yet again ofc

Then this morning I was talking with toby bc yk why not innit we were just chating then this fuckign idiot sends me a pic of himself to prove it was him in the phote even tho i already believed him obvi

Guys he's hot af 6'3 brown hair blue eyes then he sends my fuckign voice noted of him singing and playing guitar guys he can fuckign sing and he's in a band but apparently he doesn't sing he just plays guitar in his band I told him he should sing bc guys he's fuckign good at it like realy good

And ofc the main reason I hated maddy was bc I couldn't understand why she cheated vut them ofc I saw toby and was like well that explains it

So i told maddy I no longer hate her and we have oficialy started again as friends with no hard feelings I'm trying to be civil with luke but yk it's hard

I'm still with Louise ofc and I realy love her we have been tg for 6 weeks ofc I do but now bc apparently I have a fuckign thing for falling for guys I kinda like toby...

But me and him have this whole enemies who aren't enemies and are kinda friends thing and I cant get why he would kiss maddy bc she isn't ugly but liek she is not the best looking person and as I've said he's hot af

So I have no clue what to do on one hand I love Louise and want to stay with her but I also know that the feelings for toby aren't dissipating anytime soon sadly

But also as much as he says he is and him mels and luke a friends I'm not sure if he's over maddy and I've already lost one bf to maddy so i down even know what to do with my feelings ffss

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Your author who can't stay out of drama for the life of her