Once in a Blue Moon; Billie Elilish

Part 33: The European Leg part 2

"It's ok Y/N, I forgive you" he says standing up to hug me "you were scary though damn girl" he says making me laugh

"Are you ok Y/N?" Grayson says standing closer to us

As soon as I turn to look at him, I burst into tears and they both pull me into a group hug.

"Why would she do this again" I say between sobs.

"You need to talk to her y/n, find out the truth before you let it affect you. Right now you need to focus on your career, there are thousands of people out there waiting for you to perform. Show her that you are strong" Grayson says

"Go and take a breather and get your makeup fixed we can push it back 5 minutes no biggie" River says

I wipe my tears, "River this is the first you've been serious in months" I laugh. The boys laugh in response and I go get my makeup fixed. We are then called onto the stage.

The whole concert, I give it my all, while also maybe flirting with a few fans. During our talking break I jump down off the stage and greet some fans. I stop by one girl and place her hands on my face "you look great tonight!" I say harmlessly before moving on and getting back on stage. I remove my jacket once again and the boys act as my hype men.

"Can we get a little noise in here for Y/N Y/L/N look at those muscles" River says as he whistles into the mic jokingly making me laugh, the crowd roars back as I flex my arms.

The concert comes to an end shortly after, this has been the most hyped performance so far the energy the boys and I put in today was incredible. I guess it makes up for the shitty news earlier.

Speaking of I have to deal with my problem now I'm in my hotel room. I would love to avoid my problems but the thought of having to see Billie in a few days makes me feel sick.

I open the FaceTime app and hesitantly click on Billies name.

She doesn't answer.

I try again.

She doesn't answer.

Is she being for real? I send her a text letting her know to call me back and get on with my night routine. After a few minutes I hear my phone buzz

Billie🤍
Hey baby, I'm busy
Right now but I can
Call you later?
12:04 am

Saviour
call me now.
12:05 am

Billie🤍
I cant talk right now
Im sorry. But I miss you
And Love you
12:05 am

Saviour
I'm not asking I'm telling you
you need to call me
12:06 am

Her reluctancy to call me is making me even more angry. As I go to look at fans posts from tonight as a distraction, a call from her comes in.

"Hey baby what's up is it urgent?" she says

"What are you doing" I say plainly

"I'm out with friends, what's up? Your concert looked like the best one yet tonight" she reply's cheerfully

"Answer the FaceTime" I try ring her

"I can't I'm out"

Sick of her dodging I decide to let her know that I know. "How was your lunch, Odessa's story made the food look really nice" I spit out

She says silent for a moment before excusing herself to someone in the background and I hear her footsteps "Listen baby I was going to tell you, but I didn't want you to be mad especially before preforming. A group of them invited me out. It's her birthday soon"

"So you're telling me you're out for this bitches birthday now?" I say laughing out of disbelief.

"No it's not like that, there's other people here. She didn't invite me but she said she doesn't have feelings anymore" Billie explains

"How many times has this been a problem? And how many times have you apologised for it?" I say slightly more calmly

"I'm not sure like 3?" Billie says in a confused tone

"Exactly, and why is that number more than 1. Of course I'm mad you're hanging out with this girl I asked you to do one thing for me and you couldn't respect that then you dodging my calls to be with her" I reply

"I'm sorry baby I truly am. I want to hang with my friends but I shouldn't have come for her birthday. I would never cheat on you, you know that. And I wanted to call you just not at the table with everyone"

"So you embarrassed of me now too" I say

"No of course not, I've been talking about you all afternoon showing them you on tour and shit" she defends "I just don't want to be that girl who sits on the phone to their girlfriend"

I sigh into the phone, knowing she probably didn't cheat and is telling the truth but she did disrespect me by not telling me. "How am I supposed to trust you if, you're not going to tell me things?" I say

"I was waiting till I was home and could speak to you properly I promise baby" she pleads

"Ok Billie" I reply "I'm going to bed"

"Wait, Do you still want me to come to London?" Her voice is quiet and laced with shame

"I'll text you in the morning" I say keeping the emotion out my voice

"Goodnight I love you" she says pausing to hear me say it back.
But I can't I'm too exhausted so I say goodnight and hang up the phone.