Jaan - e - Jaan

Chapter - 17

I was so lost in his eyes that I didn't even realize when he started to come closer to my face...there was already no gap between our body..and now this...with my full strength I tried to push him away...but damn he is made of rock or what he didn't even budge..I tried again and this time his griped losen and I quickly moved away from him and said

bhairavi -: I have to go..

I was so shocked that I couldn't  even form any word further than this...

After saying this I again started to move towards the main door but before I could take a step further eshanth grabbed my left hand again and my blue bangles broked and fell on the ground..gosh why....they were my favourite ones...I quickly looked at him again..and as I did  he pulled me again towards him and my back crashed onto his chest....damn his chest..I wondered how many hours does he do workout his chest is incredibly built....yes incredible enough to make me breathless......before I could come out of this trauma I felt his hands were on my waist slowly wrapping around my fragile body sending shivers down my spin.....but my negative thought took over me....this is wrong....he will get hurt in future....I am hiding things from him...he will hate me once he knows them..he will leave me... I wi be left heart broken...he wi be fully crushed because of this...no no I cant do this to him...I cant love him...I shouldn't love him...for his own good...I quickly mustered up the courage though my body was trembling understand his touch

bhairavi -: leave me eshanth ji...I have to do...chhodiye hamey...hamey jaana hai

But his reply broke my heart into pieces

eshanth -: aapko chhodney key liye aap sey vivah nhi kar rahey hai priye...ham aapko na iss janam mei na aagley janam mei...ham aapko kabhi nhi chhodengey...

( I am not marrying you to leave you...not in this life time nor in any other...I will never leave you )

He whispered huskily in my ears...shivers and guilty both ran through my body...

He slowly turned me around and pulled me closer...then he slowly brought his face closer to mine...and brushed his left cheek on mine and kept it their....slowly brushing it on mine....there was no gap in between us still he was slowly pulling me closer to him...our hot breaths were mixing....our breath were getting heavier......I was giving in...cause I dont know when will be the next time he will touch me so lovingly , or look at me with eyes filled with only love and devotion...I was melting...not just in his touch but in his love too...

There were some unsaid words between us...but it never made us uncomfortable or awkward...love is the only Language between us.....our looks are our comforting words....heat of our body...are our devotional words...yes they are unsaid...till now but...still are there...

Just then he whispered in my ears with his heavy breath and deel voice

eshanth -: I know you haven't accepted this marriage fully...but I promise you...I will never hurt you, I wi never let a single drop of tears come in your eyes, I will protect you, I will worship you...I will fullfill your dreams, I will fully belong to you and only you, I will make you mine..Your words will be my command , you will tell me its night , then it will be night for me, your words will be the sole truth and reality of my life, I will love you with my whole heart and soul, I will give you every ounce of me,...

Before he could say more I interrupted him, and whar I said even I dont know why I said

bhairavi -: and what if I dont love you back