The Unexpected

Seul-gi: 27

I tried to avoid her. Unfortunately, she noticed it was me because I felt her hand on my shoulder. I looked at her, and I don't know what's with her look. Maybe full of anger? Or pity? I'm not sure, but I'm not gonna stick around just to find out. I quickly ran as far away from her as possible.I went back inside the club and told Irene I wanted to go home. She just nodded, and I saw Mark follow me, but I told him not to. Irene can't go home on her own when she's drunk. He hesitated for a while, before finally nodding and turn around. 

I went inside my car and sat there for a while. I still feel a bit nausea, but I can drive. I think I'm sober. And it's all thanks to Yuri. Why the fuck now? Why did she have to see me in my drunk state?I took my bottle of water and drank it till the last drop. I am not prepared. I wish it was later than soon. I drove towards my building. I rode the elevator to my unit. Then I opened the door and quickly lied down my bed. 

I reached for my bedside table and took the letter inside the drawer. I read it again. I smiled bitterly.It's been a year, and I never had news about him since. Is he happy now? Is he still hoping for me to change my mind? Because I may be an idiot, but I am still waiting for him. I looked at his ring which I wore as a pendant. I smiled, he gave me this as an assurance. That should mean he's still in love with me, right? 

But then again, a year has passed. I'm not even sure if he wants to see me again. And I'm afraid, not because I'm afraid of his changed feelings, but because I might take back what I said and beg for him to love me again. I don't even know myself, anymore. I closed my eyes and smiled. I'm still in love with him. 

*

I opened my eyes to see an asleep Mark on the bean bag and Irene on my bed. I shook my head in disbelief. It's been a habit for them to sleep over when it's a weekend. I got up and called for delivery because, honestly, I am still too lazy to cook. 

I went to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I waited for the water to turn warm. Then stepped in when it did. I let the water stream down my body. I closed my eyes and felt the warmth on my skin.After drying off, I wore my clothes and I heard the doorbell ring. I quickly went out of the bathroom and went to the door. I gave the delivery guy my payment and smiled at him. I thanked him and put the food on the table. 

Then I woke up the two idiots in my room.They kept on saying they'll be up in a minute, so I just went on and ate my food. After a few minutes, I saw Mark walk towards me. I smiled at him, and I saw his frown. What could've happened last night? That he's so pissed today? 

"Good morning!" I greeted, and he sat down. "What happened?" 

"Irene. Irene happened!" He said that and took the dumpling from my plate. "She's too attractive. I almost got into trouble, Seul-gi!" 

"Why? What really happened?" I inquired again. 

"A bunch of guys wanted to take her out of the club. They all looked dangerous, so I had to call the security of the club. Damn girl, she went with them, too!" 

I was shocked by what he said."Did she say anything?" I asked him again. I can't help it. 

"She got mad at me! She fucking got mad at me!" He said that and opened the food I bought for them. "That woman's crazy!" 

The door opened, and I saw a sick-looking Irene coming towards us. I just shook my head and offered her a seat. We all ate silently. Mark is probably mad at Irene, and same goes for her. Well, their personalities clash a lot. They can only get along when I am with them. 

*

I planned for a lunch date with my cousin because I missed him. I looked around the restaurant and saw Kris waving at me. I went towards him and he stood up to kiss my cheek. I smiled at him and we both sat down. The waiter handed me the menu, and I accepted it. 

"You really enjoy parties, huh?" He said and showed me his phone where I was dancing with Irene. This is a recent photo. This was last night. I just shrugged. 

"I just tried having fun. That's all." I said and focused on the menu. 

I gave my order to the waiter, and so did Kris. When our food arrived, we both ate silently, and I could see his gaze focused on me. I kept on eating, but it's been bugging me for a while now. It's like he has something to say. 

"What?" I finally asked him. 

"Well... We missed the old you." He said that and smiled bitterly. "The simple Seul-gi."I sighed. 

"Well, people change, Kris." I said and continued eating. 

*

After our lunch date, I excused myself. I wanted to go somewhere nobody would know who I am. I thought... Once I let go of Sehun, I'd be free. But I was wrong. My feelings never let me free because it was my fault. I kept on holding on. I let myself hang loose, and I have no one else to blame but myself.I went to a stall that sold churos, and ordered one. I ate it silently and stared at the people in this park. Out of all the people in this park, one must be missing someone, right? Just like me? 

I put on my earphones and listened to rock music. It went on like that for an hour. Suddenly, someone sat beside me. I don't know who this idiot is, but I don't care, too. I just moved, enough for us to have space. When the playlist ended, I opened the music application. I was about to click play when I heard that person speak. 

"What have you been doing without me?" I looked at him. What's he doing here?