𝐄𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐦; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

8‣ 𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙝 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨

"Don't lie to my face Chan, I will never believe anything that comes out of your mouth. I loved you and you know that. I never held it against you that you wanted to part ways but this? I can't forgive you for this" He's not crying but his voice sounds so small that even the devil would pity him "I didn't cheat on you, Felix! what will it take for you to get that?!" the sharpness in the brunette's tone and the rise of his voice had Felix flinching slightly, this wasn't the Chan he used to know, this was a stranger and the surprise on Felix's face explains it all well 

"You talked to him when we were together..." Felix bites down a sob and eyes Chan down who is seething and the look he sees makes him realize this is not someone he should keep his calm with, this isn't someone he shouldn't brawl with. Something's made Chan's eyes go cold and Felix hates to see it, hates the fact that there's a storm of rage rising inside of him "You kept our fucking relationship a fucking secret!" and so he bursts like a bomb that was ticking

The amount of profanities used in the sentence explains Felix can't elucidate his emotions well right now and all he wishes to do is yell in Chan's face about how he had been a douchebag and how pained he is, which is partially what he was doing right now, yelling in Chan's face. The part where Hyunjin standing behind them and watching it all go down gets explained is still not here yet because there was genuinely no point for him to be present, he knows that too but he just can't bring himself to walk away

something in him tells him Felix needs him and so he's rooted where he had been earlier which makes no sense, he never cares about people and could not have given less of a fuck if somebody needed him but right now he's bothered by leaving Felix all alone in the state where he just wishes to break down "I didn't fucking cheat on you!" Chan raises his voice because that's all he can do since all his other points have been proven futile. His feet move closer to Felix as he raises his voice again and speaks louder, much louder 

"And even if I did that doesn't mean you should get laid by fucking pricks who will hurt you! why are you letting people take advantage of you in this vulnerable state lix?" 

Chan's voice is like bricks that fall on Felix, he doesn't know where the brunette gets the audacity to act so damningly patronizing and that's not the only problem, the main issue was the way Chan was behaving. Never in their two years of being together had he ever acted with such violence and it makes Felix freeze in the minute, having a hard time grasping things. Hyunjin, on the other hand, isn't frozen like the blue-haired is and he's quick, immediate even when he places a safe hand on Felix's waist, snakes it around the curve of it and pulls him behind himself, steps in front of the blue-haired and removes his touch from his body as he towers over Chan and brings distance between the ex-lovers

danger was discerned and Hyunjin's senses were triggered, he didn't appreciate how loud Chan was when speaking with Felix, didn't appreciate how close he was getting to the freckled boy with his anger and rage dripping from the tips of his fingers. It wasn't Hyunjin's place to meddle but he wasn't going to be a bystander, he wasn't going to let things get out of hand and regret them later, he'd rather act first and think later, something that has been a tradition ever since Felix had invaded his life and he is yet to notice how many times it had occurred already

His eyes pour acid down Chan's soul, brutal and frightening as the brunette takes a short step back, gaze falling to Felix and looking away from Hyunjin's domineering one. "Be safe Felix, I just want you to be happy" he mumbles as he licks his lips, If condescending was a person, it would be Chan. Felix lets his words wash over him as he inhales a sigh, grabs Hyunjin's arms as lightly as he can, his touch akin to a feather as he pulls the blond out from his world of damnation and brings him back to reality

When Hyunjin turns his neck, their eyes meet and a soft glow is lit between them, like the rest of the world ceases to exist and it's only them in this universe. It lasts for mere seconds because Felix is too foolish to look away but it leaves a significant impression on Hyunjin. Felix's eyes fall on Chan and the previously gentle haze in them has disappeared and is replaced with something bitter as he opens his mouth and speaks words he never knew he'd ever say to this man, this man whom he loved oh so much

"I wish I never met you, Chan" 

It's cruel but honest, Chan was Felix's comet in his dead sky and now he wishes there had been a collision and he wished his sky would've collapsed then ever having fallen for this glitter in his ebony. 

and with that statement, the males make their way outside of the restrooms with Felix's hand still on Hyunjin's arm. The blond lets Felix drag him wherever he wishes like he wasn't the Hyunjin who he used to be but someone else, like his rigid rules have vanished and he can be carefree with his decisions. Sensible thinking doesn't seem to knock on his mind when he looks down at the way Felix's hand clasps around his arm and how the blue-haired is sobbing, how the sounds echo in the quiet of the shadowy alleyway, and how it affects him. He should pull away, push Felix and walk away from this entire mess but he does quite the opposite

halts in their tracks as he grabs Felix's wrist from his arm and pulls him toward himself instead of pushing him away. The blue-haired stumbles back in his chest and his sobs only become louder when Hyunjin grabs his face and turns his body entirely around, makes him face him, and look into his eyes. There was an expectancy Hyunjin would say something kind, offer a warm embrace to the freckled but yet again he went above and beyond the expected scenario and kissed Felix, placing his lips on top of the blue-haired's with sheer passion as he pulled him closer and let their bodies collide

and there they stood, in the darkened alleyway where nobody wanders, kissing like they were teen lovers who were crazy for each other, kissing like they were each other's medicine, like they were each other's poison, like they needed each other to live. Felix's sobs quieted down not because Hyunjin had his lips covering his mouth but because his mind was suddenly too occupied with the taste of cigarettes and his own lipgloss. Hyunjin's mouth now tasted like his lips and is there anything better than that knowledge? butterflies swarm around his stomach when there had been twists of ache earlier

ease drips down his back and belts around his waist in the shape of Hyunjin's hand, keeping him close and safe. Felix takes pleasure in that feeling, the sensation of knowing there's this chest he can scratch on like it's a canvas and he's a mad artist, the sensation of knowing there's this godly mouth he can kiss any time he wishes and it will ease his pains no matter the circumstances he is in, there are these sturdy arms that will hold him steady when he wishes to be bend and broken. That there's this enigmatic stranger who will fuck him when he needs to escape 

their lips move against one another in the best way possible, fitting together perfectly and Felix mewls softly in the kiss, steps closer to Hyunjin, and cups his face, no longer needing the blond to keep him steady because he has finally understood what this meant and what he needed to do next. He may have been crying like a widow seconds ago but now he's moaning in some charming fella's mouth and silently praying his hands that hold him protectively would swarm everywhere on him

It was a phenomenon, why was Hyunjin this addicting? Why did whatever they did feel this exciting no matter how much they've done it? They were fucking not even that long ago, they had their mouths linked and hands everywhere on one another, and here they were once more wishing to do it all over again like they've never once touched each other. Hyunjin pulls away from the kiss and Felix hears his pants, hears his own breath get heavy too, feels Hyunjin's arms tighten around him, and finds himself looking up as he hears Hyunjin whisper lowly 

"If only I can make you escape, pretty, then allow me to take you to wonderland" 

and oh that whisper was going to cost Felix his sanity