I heaved a sigh again, and again. Di ako makapaniwala, mom is really sending me in the Philippines?! Again?!
She knew from the start why and how. Sabi nya I need to forget and forgive... But how?
I let him see the pure in me, the innocence thats nurtured for the past 19 years of my life was allowing him to take control and manipulate. But then, I guess he was not satisfied with the pure and innocent Hannah Yu, he still cheated and acted like nothing happened.
Im currently on my flight and just the thought of the relaxing waves of boracay made me want to go there but... napangiwi ako. Theres memories with Zane there so I will just spend my days there to reminisce so... I'll maybe think about it.
"Miss, magmadali ka naman ohh, eh ang bigat-bigat nitong dinadala ko" reklamo ng isang maganda at may mala-inosenteng mukhang babae. Shes blabbering nonsense like some curse pero sa mukha nya ay masasabi mong pinupuri ka nya.
I gues dont judge a book by its cover is really true. Like how I judged that he changed, pero nauto lang din ako.
"Ohh, tumunganga ka?" mataray na sabi nung babae. Inirapan ko sya at umupo na sa windowseat.
"Uyy, ka-seatmate pa tayo nohh?" napatawa pa sya. Uhh, anong nakakatawa, seriously?
"Pake mo? " Sarkastiko kong sambit.
"Ayy hala, nagtatagalog ka rin?!" sa 10 oras na byahe naging magkaibigan kami ni Ciella, I also learned na pareho pala kaming uuwi lang sa pilipinas dahil napilitan.
"So, bakit ka umalis nung pilipinas noon, friend? " I asked her.
"So ito yun friend, nabuntis ako nung isang lalaki tapos di ko alam ko sino yun kaya pinatapin ako nila mama sa Paris para patirahin, at para malaman ko raw ang nga kasalanan ko na nabuntis ng maaga. Friend, mahirap pala talaga mamuhay ng mag-isa naa sarili mo ang kailangan mo aasahan" pandadaldal ni Ciella, pero naawa ako sa kanya.
Ikaw ba't palayasin ng parents mo para sa ibang bansa tapos wala kang pera para mag survive kaya kumakayod ka, I admire moms like her who's strong to raise her baby alone brave and proud. To think na sa mga nangyari sa buhay nya nakakangiti pa si Ciella, she really has that positive attitude kagaya ko noon.
Actually, Im still a positive thinker pero tinatago ko lang sa iba para malaman nila na hindi ako basta-basta lang pwede tapakan.
This world doesn't deserve pure and innocent people like me and Ciella.
We all are acting to be strong to survive. We are fighting our demons to take over our system.
"So ikaw, bakit ka pumunta rito? Ehhh ayaw mo naman pala? " Ciella asked.
I told her how my mom is forcing me to go home, at the Philippines .
Natawa naman si Ciella. "So may pa " You are fired!" pa yung mommy mo dun?!" natawa uli sya kaya natawa na rin ako. I was really shocked that time kasi di ko alam bakit na Axed ako sa trabaho.
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Home atlast. I heaved a sigh at the scenery of the bloody sky above me.
Sunset.
It was like...
Ugh! Jeez, Hannah!! Reminiscing again?! Move on na, bitch!
This is why I hate going back, the memories I want to hide is coming back....
"Miss? " someone called from behind kaya nioibgin ko na. Baka holdaper to ha.
"Yes? " pagtataray ko pa. I just raised my brow.
"Umm, yung baggage nyo po, kunin nyo na. Na stuck tuloy yung sa iba" pamimilosopo ng lalaki. kuya ang sarap mo naman hampasin sa utak (◞ ‸ ◟ㆀ)
Without any further ado, kinuha ko na ang bagahe ko at pumara na ng taxi.
Why did I even hate this country in the first place?
STAI LEGGENDO
Lovely Soul
Storie d'amoreShe's his peace and rest. The kind of girl that supports him from everything he does. But... SHE LEFT HIM. But when their past crossed again, she seemed like she's not that Lovely Soul anymore.
