2015
Started well
And it ended with death
And I'm helpless
I waited for my little angel for 9 months
At first I didn't want him
But then I only thought about him
My dolls on top of his affection
You don't know the pain
That I felt that night
I was 4 years old
When I received the news that he became a little angel
At that moment a part of my heart crumbled
From then on, trauma arose
I couldn't but get attached to any child or adult
And this has become a serious problem
I've been without you for years
The penny dropped these days
Then I had my first anxiety attack
It was horrible
It's bullshit, but when I get home
I have a feeling I'll see you running with a toothless smile
You are there in heaven
You must be impressing the angels with your laugh
It's very tiring here with me
But I'm moving on
The world was too cowardly
Took my prince away from me
Today all that remains is longing
But I can't be strong
I take a breath, count to five
God says he is there with you
Something tells me you're worried
But know that I won't forget your legacy
I wasn't prepared
I don't understand your walk
Can't hide
What you miss
Without you here
Don't feel like laughing
Makes you want to give up
Everyone thinks I don't remember you
But this stuck in my 4 year old mind
I would trade everything to have you here
Just to make me smile
I wanted to go back in time
To enjoy more with you
In the end
Who knew you would die
By: Gabriela Turo
10.01.24
