I can't do this Alone

Part 10

Lucy's pov
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i'm worried about tim i mean i've had panick attack probaly worse than that but i know he hasn't and that worries me he thinks im asleep but im not im so in love with him he dosent know it seeing him so vunerable like that only made me love him more i do wish he would have woken me up im gonna talk to him about it tomorrow i think if im just a little more touchy and seem more into him he'll catch on that i really do like him...

The next morning
we don't wake up till 10:30 but we had a late night im not shocked
i see him wake up still laying on my chest he looks up at me
Lucy - goodmorning handsome
i giggle
Tim - goodmorning what time is it
Lucy -10:30
tim - half the day already gone why didn't you wake me
Lucy - tim you had a long night it's ok i wanna talk to you about that though
Tim - lucy - i'm fi-
Lucy - tim why didn't you wake me up i could've helped you
Tim - lucy i thought i could handle it myself i didn't wanna wake you
Lucy - tim come on
Tim - ok ill wake you if it happens again
Lucy - and it will happen again they don't just stop
Tim - do you still get them?
Lucy - yea i do
Tim - how often
Lucy - depends on the week but usually atleast once a week
Tim - oh luce
Lucy - it's mostly when i have flashbacks or have a dream
Tim - a dream?
Lucy - umm yea , it's like reliving the kidnapping over and over they suck
Tim - oh lucy i'm so sorry
Lucy - it's ok , why don't we make some lunch
Tim - of course what do you want
Lucy - idk let's see what you have
we both get up i change into leggings and im still wearing tim's hoodie that says metro on the front and bradford on the back
tim changes into jeans and a grey henley
he walks out to see me making something he goes and stands behind me
Tim - watcha making
Lucy - pasta
Tim - ooo
i turn to look at him i puts her arms around his waist and looks up at him
Tim - you look good in my hoodie
i giggle and put my arms around his neck
and kiss him like he did the first time we kissed he lifts me up by the waist this time the kiss is long and it feels different like our lips are perfect for each others i feel like i never have before i feel cared for loved tim gives me butterflies like no guy before has he's not a man i just wanna jump into bed and have sex with as much as i want to i wanna take it slow with him savor the time we have together the kiss comes to an end and i hide my face in his neck i know im blushing ive never experienced something so amazing
Tim - watcha doing their cutie
i lift my face up a smile spread across my face
Tim - god i love your smile
i kiss him again wich is hard to do when i cant stop smiling
Tim - mm i'll finish your pasta
he sets me on the counter so i just sit there watching him cook ...