Never Departing Again

Chapter 1

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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New school, new people, new environment. Natatakot akong pumasok. Hindi ko alam kung paano mag socialize!

Pero wala akong choice. I really need to study for my future.

I guess I just have to accept the fact that introverts like me needs to step out of their comfort zone just to survive.

I sighed and just pushed myself to enter this room full of unfamiliar people. They all seem like they already established their own group of friends. How the hell can I fit in now?

This is what I hate the most about the first day of school. Socializing! Look, I don't want to seem like a loner who doesn't have any friends. But I also don't know how to do the work to not look friendless!

I just sat in the corner and stayed silent. I pulled out my sketchbook and I started to draw out of frustration and anxiety.

This pen and paper are really what saves me in times like this. These things won't judge me, and they give me the freedom to draw whatever I want depending on my mood.

I just kept on drawing and drawing until the bell rang and my adviser entered the room.

Puro welcoming lang naman sa first day at puro orientation. Boring. Gusto ko naman talagang umabsent pero I'm aiming to get a perfect attendance award. At ayaw ko rin namang simulan yung highschool journey ko na may katamaran, diba?

This is my first day as a Grade 7 student. Oo, nakakakaba, pero life goes on! I just need to be positive and always think about the bright side of things.

This mindset is what always kept me going. I just kept on being positive, and look, Grade 7 na ako!

Nakaka-pressure yung thought na high school na ako, but also, woah! High school na ako!

Hindi naman ako excited na maging high school student, but here I am, so why not just be happy about it, diba?

Kaso ang problema lang... Hindi nga ako marunong makipag socialize! Ugh! Ang laki laki ng problema ko, gosh.

After a few hours of boring talk, finally, recess na. Kaso wala naman akong kausap! Silang lahat ay pumupunta na sa kanilang sari-sariling mga kaibigan, pero ako? Tangina, mukha akong loner.

Gusto ko naman makipaghalubilo sa mga kaklase ko, ngunit ang hirap talaga! Hindi ba pwedeng sila nalang ang unang makipag-usap sa'kin?

So ayun, mahiyain ako at naging loner ako for the first day! Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, pumunta agad ako sa aking computer at nag search, "How to make friends". I know, I know, napaka-loser! Pero desperado na ako, gustong gusto ko na magkaroon ng kaibigan.

Sa susunod na araw, pumunta ako sa eskwelahan na may sobrang laking ngiti. Sabi nila, the bigger the smile, the bigger the charm!

Halos tatlumpung minutos na akong nakangiti, pero bat' parang hindi gumagana 'tong tactic ko? Ayaw ba talaga nila sa akin?

Ngiti nalang ako nang ngiti, pero hindi talaga! Ugh, ayoko na nga!