Falling Harder Than Ever

19 - The Ex

A/N: THIS STORY IS GOING TO BRING THE EX ELLIE DATED FROM 2017 INTO THE STORY (JUST A FLASHBACK REMINDER: Isla: Ok. This is weird. I've never seen you this lovey dovey since like 2017 Ellie.
Leah: Who were you with in 2017?
Ellie: No one. I just went through a phase. * mouths to Isla* Shut the fuck up.) TW, SH (SELF HARM)

It's been a few days

Ellie is performing at a party in the Emirtates for a Halloween for the girls and others

Ellie is setting up her guitar along with Sammy, Chloe and Will setting up their own instruments

Ellie sets up the mic stands etc

Eventually they're set is ready

Ellie finds Leah with Katie and Beth

Ellie: * smiles* Hi.
Leah: * kisses her cheek, smiles and wraps her arm around Ellies waist* You excited to perform?
Ellie: Of course. Especially with you here.
Beth: God did you two ever leave the honeymoon stage?
Ellie and Leah: * laugh*
Leah: Clearly not.
Ellie: Right I gotta go. I love you baby. * kisses Leahs cheek*
Leah: I love you too.

Ellie goes on stage

Ellie: * talks into the mic* Hey everyone.

Everyone cheers

Ellie: * smiles* Uh..... So. You guys know me from well.... everywhere..... * chuckles* This song..... was written by Andi Mitchell originally but ever since I listened to it I related to it in a way. So this is Convince Myself.

Chloe starts playing the piano to this song

Ellie starts singing

Ellie: Told myself this time it would be different........ And you and I could really make it work........ That you're just really busy, you're not distant........ And you're scared to commit, 'cause you've been hurt before.........

Sammy joins in one the bass followed by Will on the drums

Ellie walks around the stage

Ellie: My friends are getting tired of me asking........ About you, I can't help but bring it up........ They say if it was real I wouldn't ask them how you feel....... If they think that you might be the one....... When will I realize....... If she wanted to she would........ Six words I never understood......... It's not fair........ Why can't I accept the fact that you don't care? So I make up excuses, like your phone died, hit red lights, so that's why you're late........ But you're acting different, you're acting strange........... Why am I always so forgiving? Just to keep you mine when you don't give me reasons.......... To believe that you want me, I'm back on the shelf.......... I shouldn't have to, have to convince myself............ Used to talk all day, you're getting slower

Sammy: (Slower).......

Ellie: Haven't asked to see me in awhile.......... Or maybe I just overthink and that's the normal way of things....... I question myself like a child..........

Sammy: (Question myself like a child)........

Ellie goes back to centre stage and puts her mic back in her mic stand

Ellie: When will I realize....... If she wanted to she would, six words I never understood...........

Ellie locks eyes with her ex

Ellie: * frowns and closes her eyes whilst placing her hand on the mic and the mic stand* It's not fair....... Why can't I accept the fact that you don't care? So I make up excuses, like your phone died, hit red lights, so that's why you're late........ But you're acting different, you're acting strange....... Why am I always so forgiving? Just to keep you mine when you don't give me reasons........ To believe that you want me, I'm back on the shelf........ I shouldn't have to, have to convince myself..........