"... I love you" he replied.
"I love you too" she smiled.
She put the phone on her dresser before opening her window and lighting a cigarette.
She blew the smoke out as Andrew turned on the record player.
I know it's over by The Smiths started to play.
She stood straight, hoping that he would realize it's not the right record.
Hoping that he'd take it off.
She'd put it on days ago, she remembered laying down on the living room floor.
Crying as she stared at the ceiling.
I know it's over, still I cling. I don't know where else I can go.
She took a drag, staring at the floor.
He hadn't taken it off.
Maybe he also understood.
Maybe he also stilled as he heard the words.
I know it's over, and it never really began, but in my heart it was so real.
The record player paused.
"Andrew?" she called out.
He walked up to her room.
She offered him the cigarette, he took it.
He chuckled, shaking his head.
"Is it crazy that I'm wondering what he's doing?"
"No" she shook her head. "Very normal" she nodded.
"I want to call him."
She took a deep breath.
"I know I shouldn't. I don't want to" he replied. "I just... I want to."
"I know" she nodded.
Lily appeared on Spencer's bed, a sad look on her face.
Spencer sniffled as she tried not to cry.
She also wondered what Remus was doing. If he'd write back if she sent a letter. If he thought about her as much as she did.
"I thought you hated cigarettes, now you can't seem to get off of them" he spoke.
"Remus smoked when he got stressed" she admitted. "I guess they remind me of him."
He nodded. "He didn't deserve you" he looked up at her.
She shrugged, "he had me anyway."
The doorbell rang, he gave her back the cigarette. "Time to put on a show" he smiled, wiping his face with his hand.
"I'll be out there in a second."
He kissed her forehead before leaving her room.
"How are you?" Spencer asked Lily.
"Good" she answered. "How are you?"
"I'm okay" she smiled softly. "Where's James?"
Lily shrugged.
He's with Remus, Spencer thought.
"We can talk about him, you know? If you want"
"I don't want to make you uncomfortable" Lily shook her head.
"Life is uncomfortable" she shrugged.
Lily smiled at her. "I know what you two were planning" she confessed.
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Meretricious | Professor Lupin
Romantikusmer·e·tri·cious: apparently attractive but having in reality no value or integrity. Spencer Artemis Venus, a seventh year Gryffindor, expected many things from her final year at Hogwarts. Her complicated relationship with Snape, getting hungover on...
128. A kiss
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