FOURTH'S POV
I've met him after 4 years, but this isn't how I want to meet him, he already got a family of his own. He got pretty wife with a decent job and above that, he already have a son, how am I supposed to take all this
I'm dreaming of the times I'll meet him again, but this isn't how I dreamt about it, why do he have to be already married, why?
All those 4 years while I've been waiting him to come back without knowing if he'll return or not, he was here with someone else happily and start his own family
Is this why P'Ohm said I should be happy that he attend my solo fanmeet, because that is the only things I can get from him
Is all those time I spent searching for him was just a waste of time?
He doesn't have a problem but enjoying his life, a life where I wasn't included, a life where I have no importance
Does this mean that I have no effect on his life, the time we spent together were nothing to him?
Why, why does it hurt so bad?
Why does it have to be so painful?
I don't want to feel all these pain
Please someone take away all these heavy things from my chest
It made it so hard to breath
It's suffocating
Why do I need to meet him again if it's gonna be like this?
I can still keep dreaming the way I wish before I meet him again, but now everything has change
Someone please tell me it's just one of those nightmare
Please just wake me up from this nightmare, I don't want to sleep to get this kind of nightmare, please... Please just wake me up
I can't go on like this
Please?
Wake me up
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Just a short update
I have a question
Should I write Gem's pov or should I just continue with only Fourth's pov and third person's pov?
Anyway, good night lovies🤍🤍
