Woke up to another dreadful day without you. I walked out of my room and into the kitchen to get some cereal, unfortunately, we still have no milk. So I just didnt bother eating. I didn't care to go get some, because if I leave, management might take everything I have left of you. I ended up having to go downstairs to get something, I dont even remember what it was now, but whilst I was down there I ended up crying, and basically hugging the spot you were found. I am hurting so much, I still cant get over the fact I caused this. You always told me not to blame myself, but I am.
I had therapy again, and Paige stayed with me this time. Claire likes to read the stuff I write to you. Oh, did I tell you her name was Claire? Probably not, but now you know. She keeps telling me to stop writing to you, because you probably can't actually read it. But I just ignore her. To be completely honest, I don't even remember half the things she was talking about to me today, and she left not even an hour ago. The rest of that day was spent with Paige, crying into eachother.
