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Kiyomi Simmons Memphis , Tennessee 5:04 pm
" myri please im tryin " i said as myri continued to yell at the top of her lungs its been a week since i got outta the hositpial since my coma & this has been hard, myri isnt still used to me so when temetrious leaves us alone she cry & cry till he comes back
right now he's at practice, i was tryin to feed her but she keep cryin movin her head around
i gave up on feedin her & startin rockin her, i felt my eyes get hot
my own daughter dosent even like me
i sat on the couch rockin myri tears rollin down my eyes, " its okay " i whispered to her
i heard the door open makin me quickly wipe my eyes continuin to rock her lookin at the gracie's corner tht played on yt i put on for her a long time ago
" mama " he said walkin in the livin room
as soon as myri heard his voice her cry's calmed down which now was juss whines
" yes bubby " i said still lookin straight
" whats wrong " he said
" nothin " i said snifflin wipin my eyes some more
" look at me kiyomi " he said more sternly i looked at him
" why you cryin " he said sittin down next to me
" im not " i said handin myri to him gettin up walkin upstairs
" ma - " i heard last
i already closed the room door goin to the dresser grabbin some clothes to change into after my shower
i walked to the bathroom closin & lockin the door, i went underneath the sink grabbin my razor
i sighed before runnin the shower sittin onna edge of the tub puttin the blade to my thighs makin deep cut hissin wit every cut blood on my hands & the shorts i was wearin atm
i got up rinsin off the blade puttin it back in my hidin spot before gettin in the shower
i hissed lettin the hot water hittin the fresh cuts, after showerin i got out puttin on some sweats & a crop top puttin my bonnet on throwin my clothes in the hamper walkin out
temetrious laid on the bed in different clothes wit kamyri layin on his chest rubbin her back
" we bathed inna guest bathroom " he said gettin bein careful of her layin her on the big pillow we got
i juss nodded walkin outta the room to the kitchen, i could feel ja follow behind me
i went into the cabinet grabbin a cup puttin some ice & water in it drinkin some
" kiyomi " he said stern
" hm " i hummed in response
" did you go cut " he asked
" wh- no " i said
" you fuckin lyin bro " he said throwin the bloody shorts in my hand
" temetrious " i said tryna explain
" bro kiyomi how df can i leave you around our daughter when you still doin tht bs " he whispered yelled gettin closer
" i - im sorry temetrious " i cried
" why do it kiyomi " he asked
" cs i juss feel like im not good enough to be her mother " i cried playin wit my bracelet he gave me a while back
" kiyomi you are a amazing mama to myri " he said grabbin my chin
" she cries every time we alone tg , she doesnt feel safe wit me " i said to him
" kiyomi you was in a coma for the first few weeks she was born , she still gettin used to dont blame tht on yourself , he said kissin me
.. i promise you she gon to love once she used to " he finished
" okay " i said as he wipped my face
" i love you ma " he said kissin my forehead
" i love you more bubba " i said fallin into his touch
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- few weeks later
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Temetrious Morant Memphis , Tennessee 3:45 pm
me & yomi decided tht we was gon move out of memphis , to better raise myri
we did not wanna raise our kid inna place where we had so much trouble & trauma in , we wanted myri to be surrounded by better
" papa do you like this couch " she asked showin me a grey L shaped sofa
" yeah ma , thts cool " i said layin on her chest wit myri on my chest
" okay " she said orderin it so it can be shipped to the house
we decided to go texas , idk why but thts we decided on so we found a nice duck'd off two story crib wit a lot of space
the official move date is inna couple days so the current house is filled with boxes of stuff we was givin away & keepin
" bubba we have to go to my apartment so i can also get the rest of my stuff " she said as i moved from her chest onto the pillow
yeah , she basically moved in wit me but she still had things at her dads house she wanted
" okay bby " i said while i rubbed myri 's back
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