Beneath The Play

Chapter 12

                                                               〘《•_______✎_______•》〙°

                                                                         Hell

I feel like I was wrong. Like I'm exactly a mess. I know I'm imperfect. But I'm pretty sure that I can do things in great ways, like how I love helping people who needed medical assistance. But looking back on it... I didn't know how my plans to get graduate and not to involve myself in serious relationship become wrecked. 

How do I am supposed to move away from a marriage I'm not coerced to? Nobody had pushed me to go yes on Cadmium's proposal. Pero, alam ko sa sarili kong may nararamdaman akong atraksyon para sa kaniya. It's my attraction to him that keeps me staying with him. It's my attraction to him that keeps me leading on. But deep inside I am fully aware how he wakes up something inside me. 

Alam kong nabuksan n'ya ang alaalang nabaon na sa'king isipan. Hindi ko man gustong mahirapan sa kaka-isip pero wala, kailangan ko.. A part of my past suddenly rewind.

"Holley?" boses ni Cadmium' mula sa pinto ang nagpabukas sa mga mata ko mula sa mababaw na pagkakaidlip.

Hindi ako dumilat. Hindi ako kumilos. Narinig ko nalang ang pagtikhim n'ya sabay katok.

"I'm not hungry." Pagsisinungaling ko.

"I'll put your food on the refrigerator. Please eat it once you get hungry." He said and I listened as his footsteps disappeared.

I counted one up to three before opening the door. Tinignan ko ang relo na suot ko. It's around eight in the evening. 

Naantok na'ko pero nagugutom na rin ako kaya naman tinungo ko rin ang kusina. Sinipat ko muna kung may tao o nasa loob si Cadmium bago ako pumasok. 

"I thought I heard from Cadmium that you're not hungry, but then, why are you going here in the kitchen? Lol." 

Si Rauen? I glared at him devilishly and he just took a step back like he's a suspect from a crime. 

"Chismoso." I blurted out.

"Oy, hindi kaya!" Tawa niya.

"Denial." I rolled my eyes and went to the faucet as I said that. He laughed a little and spoke.

"Seryoso? You went here just to wash your hands? I thought Cadmium's rooms here have it's own comfort rooms?" pag-uusisyoso niya.

"Kadaldalan mo! Paano mo nasabi? Saka—stop eating that spaghetti and meatballs! Akin 'yan eh!'' I exclaimed.

Tinigil n'ya ang pagkain saglit saka tumingin sa'kin. 

"Kayo talagang mga babae, pa-diet-diet kayo tapos hindi n'yo namang kaya panagutan." He remarketing and returned eating my dinner.

Akmang bubuksan na n'ya ang babaunan ng fruit salad ng pigilan ko s'ya mula sa braso niya. He looked at me shocked and yelled so loud that my ears felt like a sound quake happened.

"Cadmium.. Let me explain." It's Rauen and he removed my hands from him.

"What is it that you have to explain fucker?" Cadmium's showed us his pistols. 

Kailan pa s'ya nakarating doon?

"You know what you see is just a friendly interaction. Hehe." He made a piece sign.