I have been writing my memories, thoughts, conclusions and others for about two years, I try to remain or be optimistic, apparently, according to those who have read them, these are interesting stories. I've been told for a long time, publish it, ch...
Literally unkempt thoughts...What would happen if... I was younger or chose a different way of living?
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On Hannah's second profile, I wrote, or rather chaotically, something about what I think about American comic book heroes who are supposed to protect the "world order" but Europe absolutely does not want it, as well as watching Tarantino's films, which he thinks he has... Causative POWERS to create "European" films...))) Well, nothing could be further from the truth. I wrote that post for about a week because I couldn't gather all the information and conclusions in one piece without chaos, but I didn't manage to do it.It's probably my mood that turned into dark humor and sarcasm...I remember, right after graduation, in a new job, I moved in with a friend whose way to escape and relax was... the cinema! She always chose good movies, she started persuading me, Hannah, you walk around frustrated from corner to corner, you don't turn off the light at 5 a.m. In case you haven't noticed, it doesn't help you at all! Then you take some wine and cry in front of the TV in the evenings, try it with me (because I'm reluctant)) at least once to sit in the cinema, it's not the same, even a big TV, the so-called home cinema and a real cinema, you'll see, you'll get better soon, be in a good mood and the problem will disappear.
In fact, I finally let Dominique talk me into it, we went to see a good movie, I remember it, we left in silence, I suddenly forgot about everyday problems, I stopped tormenting myself with imaginary and real problems. I always thought that you run and meditate. But Dominique quickly sobered me up, that was also one of her arguments, you run every day at five in the morning, you try to meditate and what? And nothing, you are exhausted, constantly depressed, your nerves have started to deteriorate, and we are before 30, so what will happen after that? A grumpy, sarcastic spinster? aha, she was right, i was 26 and felt as if we were 55. And then the situation was completely reversed - I was 40 and I always felt like that and it stayed that way for 28 years.I criticized American cinematography a lot, but only about certain things, timeless films or NOT sci-fi films and those that I wrote about in that post.To finish, when I started working on the film, each one, and I watched a lot of films, I started to evaluate them from the technical and substantive point of view.I got back to the books So I went back to books, that's when King's books became fashionable, and later, until today, I evaluate the special effects and the actors' performances a bit, instead of relaxing and watching them calmly, already at home, because the packages had started, I bought the movie ones, but I also went back to the books. I've read so much in my life and I can't cope with my problems on my own?There is something about it, when we are alone, left to our own devices, we run around in circles, only increasing stress, frustration and hopelessness. Movies don't fix that. Then I turn into a biting, sarcastic person. However, there is still no solution. Yesterday I read someone wrote about it, about fear and going around in circles, intensifying it even more until my brain can't stand it. I know something about this. I felt like he was writing about me. I remember that I started subscribing to it, I had previously tried the so-called celebrities, recognized in psychology, I read, I read everything but it didn't help me, it's probably like alcoholics and other addicted people think that the best therapists are not those "who have read books" only "after the ordeal" and they are probably right.
