the things i wish i could say (out loud)

fifth.

sunsets.
i've always adored the sunset.
a breathtaking mixture of blue, pink, purple, yellow, and orange.
colors that you wouldn't normally think would blend so beautifully together.
i see you in the sunsets, especially when there's purple in them.
purple was your favorite color, i wonder if it still is.
i wonder if you're still around to gaze at the sunsets with me.
i wonder if you're standing beside me, holding my hand as i stare lovingly at the sky.
i wonder if you're still around.
a lot of people say you are.
i honestly don't know.
i wish i had all the answers and knew every mystery of the world and what happens after.
i don't know if you're still around.
i like to think that you are.
i like to think that you painted the sky for me,
with all of those beautiful colors.
i like to think that you're still here.
maybe you're in every sunset.
maybe that's why i fell in love with them so much.
because it's you.
because you're still around.
in every. sunset.

a/n: a lot of my writings surround my mother and my missing her. this is one of my favorite writings.