As we walked together in the late evening, surrounded by darkness
Your hostile demeanor caused my sorrow
That look in your eyes showed just how much you despised me
I couldn't think about anything else but how much I now hated you
..how much I thought I hated you
And I said it, knowing the reaction it would cause out of you
I hate you!
Our dispute caused addition darkness that will change my life forever
What if we were happy?
What if I told you I loved you instead?
What if I had just apologized and let it go?
As I write this my heart burns
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
If only I knew that we weren't really alone
I can't help but think about how those additional eyes watched us argue
Waiting for the perfect opportunity to end the argument forever
As he had the gun pointed to my head I saw a shift
A change
In your eyes
The same eyes that showed they despised me now showed that you would do anything
For me
My body stilled
I was frozen from shock
It's okay I remember you whispering that to me
A tear fell from my eyes as I remember how much you used to tell me that when we were younger
When I was scared of the dark
When I believed a monster was under my bed
When I had the worst nightmares
It's okay little one, it's going to be okay
Never would I have guessed that the words that made me overcome my darkest fears were also the last words you said before my biggest fear happened
The eyes of the unknown man were hungry
Hungry to take whatever we could give
Hungry to hear our fear
Hungry to ...
Hungry.
To take a life.
It should have been me
You knew it should have been me
As he pointed the gun to my head you rushed to be my shield without a second thought
Your arm wrapped around my neck as your chin rested on my head and your other hand was place on my head as you tightly closed your eyes
The same hug you gave me during my first heartbreak
The same hug you gave me to comfort me
Your tight grip proved how scared you were of letting me go
And in the split second my biggest fear came true as your grip loosened
Covered in your blood that spilled from your heart
I screamed
Please. No please. Stay up okay. Stay up!
I begged you
Begged you to live
My cry was ear splitting
As your corpse fell to the ground I broke
My heart died with yours
I love you
I'm not mad at you
I don't hate you
I...
I can't live without you
I said those words with a broken voice knowing that you could no longer hear me
Since you left me I've felt lost
I feel dead
So as I stand on the edge of this building
I feel something I haven't felt in a long time
Happiness
Turning around as I lean on one foot backwards
One foot at a time leaving the steady surface
As the winds pressure makes it hard to breathe and the adrenaline causing me to hear my heart in my ears
As I realize that this is it, the only thing that's on my mind is
You
Seconds from being with you
And when I'm finally with you, you will never hear the end of
I wasn't angry with you
I don't hate you
I'm sorry
Now that I'll finally be with you, I'll get to say
I Love You.
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DU LIEST GERADE
Poems of Poems
PoesieThis will have lots of poems you can relate to. Each page is a new poem. The titles of the poems are in the beginning of each chapter. I hope you all enjoy. Even though it says completed I will be adding new poems every week. This is completely my...