Rebuilt Trust // PROJECT SEKAI // Nefarious Hell Part 2 [CANCELED]

06 : Outted In The Worst Way Possible

CW: Mentions of violence and an LGBT character gets outted to a single person!

2:56 A.M / Rui's POV

I sit up, yawning a bit. It was still dark outside. The stars glimmered through the window. Tsukasa was asleep right next to me, letting out soft breaths and snores.

He looked adorable.

But everytime I look at him. I can only see the terrified face he put on when I ripped his arm off.

The blood that he had all over his face and clothes. The sweat and tears. The hatred he had when he stared at me.

All because I was being stupid.

No matter how many jokes he makes about it, I know he's traumatized. Scared to admit that it makes him want to cry. Scared he'll get called weak for being traumatized. I know he's scared.

Even if his arm did grow back, (however the hell that even happened) he's still left with scars, im sure of it. I wouldn't be surprised if he still hated me for it.

If it weren't for my existence, so much wouldn't have had happened. For example: the pain Tsukasa suffered.

He didn't deserve that. Nobody does.

But, it's too late now, isn't it? I've recalled back to it millions, no trillions, of times now and I'm still guilty of it. I know its been five or four, somewhere between there, since, but..

No.

There can't be any "but"'s anymore. Either I regain the trust me and Tsukasa had, or i make it worse.

Tsukasa turns over, his back facing me. He mumbles something as he does so. Whatever he said related to me. I know it did because he mentioned my name.

Actually, now that I think about it. Tsukasa's acting weird. I mean, yeah, we did just reunite, but he's acting really strange. It's like something changed as soon as me and Mizuki had that conversation.

Was he jealous? Is that the issue? No.. He doesn't seem like someone who'd easily get jealous... Is he hiding something from me? If so, what would it even be?

My thoughts wandered throughout my head. From "I could use dark magic to make him tell me himself." and "I wonder what he's hiding."

The first thought was immediately crossed off the list of 'things to do.' I avoided dark magic, and for a good reason. As fun as dark magic sounds, the title certainly fits.

Dark magic can grant whatever you want. Whether its to force someone to do whatever you want or if you want somebody to tell you all of their deepest secrets. It could literally do anything that was possible in this universe. The only con about dark magic is that the person using the magic is affected.

That person's usual ability/magic would strengthen and at some point be uncontrollable. Not only that, but the dark magic could become an addiction once used so many times. It's almost like a drug if you use it more than once. It becomes the only thing you ever need.

Have you ever wondered why Emu never had problems with her ability despite it being the same as mine, while mine has made me practically go insane?

Emu's never used dark magic. She's terrified of it.

I've used dark magic before. I'm terrified of myself.

That's the reason.

She's able to control her ability while I can't since when I was 15, I thought it'd be a fun and exciting idea to use dark magic in a battle to make the knight at the time do whatever I pleased.