Rebuilt Trust // PROJECT SEKAI // Nefarious Hell Part 2 [CANCELED]

05 : A Tough Discussion

Rui nods, smiling. "And combining all of that makes you think of me as?" he says.

I take a moment. "As.. the person I care and love the most despite how toxic the relationship between us is." These words seemed to effect Rui a bit.

"Toxic..?" he whispers.

I sigh. "Yeah. Toxic is the right word." I murmur. "The relationship wasn't healthy, yet we still believed it was. You harmed me and I harmed you. It didn't work out.. But.. No matter how toxic it was last time, I'm willing to try again and make it right."

He stifles a laugh, sitting next to me on the bed. He leans his head on my shoulder. "You know, Tsukasa-kun.. I never took you as someone to be so forgiving.. Fuck, I ripped off your arm and killed myself, carelessly, in front of you. Not to mention I threatened your life so many times.. and yet, you're still willing to try again." Rui says.

I smile gently. "I know it sounds stupid.. But, I believe you've changed. I'm willing to rebuild our trust." I tell him.

"Ah.. Right." He smiles.

It falls quiet. For a few minutes at least. After I got tired of the silence, I decided to speak up. "By the way.. Was there a reason as to why you locked the door..?" I ask, very concerned.

Rui's eyes grow wide. His face goes practically red and he hides his face. "No reason! No reason at all!" He sputters quickly.

Huh?

Why did he go red?

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OH MY FUCKING GOD.

"YOU'RE JOKING, RIGHT?!" I gasp, standing up and immediately backing up. Rui looks at me, blinking a few times. "YOU WERE GOING TO.. YOU KNOW.. ME?!" I shriek, extremely uncomfortable with the idea of that. Anything of the sort, other than small make out sessions and kissing, scared me. I didn't like sexual things.

"What?! No! You're just assuming things now!" Rui snaps, being just as surprised as I was. "I- I didn't plan on doing... that!"

I wasn't believing that for even a second. "LIAR! Y-YOU WERE GOING TO–"

"Tsukasa-kun, I wouldn't dare to do that to you! I know your boundaries about that stuff, idiot!" Rui shouts, seeming a bit disappointed I even went to that conclusion.

"THEN WHY WERE YOU BLUSHING?! HUH?!" I stammar.

"I don't know?! Am I not allowed to blush?!" He grits his teeth, standing up and walking towards me.

I gasp, backing away into a wall. He corners me there. "AH! GET AWAY YOU SPIDER LOOKING GRAPE!"

Rui's mouth drops. "What did you just– WHAT?!"

I laugh. "I called you a spider looking grape!! The title matches PERFECTLY!" I say.

Rui sighs, pulling me in a kiss. It was a bit sloppy since I hadn't necessarily expected him to do that. I don't think anyone did. It's not everyday you have a jokeful arguement with your partner and they pull you into a kiss.

After thirty seconds or so, Rui stops. "What was that for?" I ask, confused.

"To shut you up. You were being too loud, and I know damn well these castle walls are thin." He places a hand on his hip.

I nod. They were thin. I'm not sure why that didn't click. If Rui did lock the door to... you know.. I very much doubt that would last long before the door got kicked down. Saki's room is directly next to my room too, which was obviously the worse part.

Not to mention, as Rui said, he knows what im okay and not okay with. I doubt he'd do such a thing right after gaining my trust back..

God, I really am stupid.

"Plus Saki's room is next door and I'm very sure she'd like to sleep, meaning you need to be quiet." Rui adds.

I nod again. I didn't have any words.

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"By the way, Tsukasa-kun."

I look at Rui. "Hm?"

"Do you mind if I sleep in here with you tonight? I'd rather not sleep on a bench again like I have been for the past week."

He's been.. what?

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE SLEEPING ON A FUCKING BENCH?!" I holler.

Rui shrugs. "Dunno, anyway, can I?"

I scoff. "Yes.. But in return.." I chuckle a bit, kissing Rui. The kiss holds for a minute or so.. He's the one to pull away. I felt warm inside.

Rui chuckles, grabbing my hand. "Alright.. I'm going to go to sleep then." he grins.

I hesitate. "You aren't going to change into pajamas?"

He shakes his head. "I don't own any." Rui says. I frown.

"I might have a big t-shirt and sweatpants you can borrow, hold on." I walk over to my closet and rummage through it. I found exactly what I said.. Except, I quickly realized. If me and Rui were sleeping in the same bed.. I'd have to keep my binder on while sleeping..

This can't end well.

I hand Rui the clothes and I turn away so he could change. When he was done, I grabbed my clothes and he turned around so I could change too.

I made the decision to keep my binder off.  Surely he wouldn't notice that my chest isn't flat. I mean, he isn't the one to really pay attention to that stuff, so I'm sure its fine. And.. its not like its the first time I've slept in the same bed as him without my binder on.

I need to relax. Everythings fine. Plus. if he realizes, I'll just tell him the truth. Easy as that.

Yeah.

That's what ill do.