If I'm There - Noah Sebastian

Chapter 13 - The penultimate show.

May has always been the responsible one in our group, and Jesse has always had the fuck it attitude which makes it so much harder when I ask for advice because they both have good points.

"You're such a sceptic, May. Seriously" Jesse spits at May.
"Yeah I am, but am I wrong?" She snarled back.

"Shut up, you're doing my head in" I say between them. We all share a sad chuckle between us.

"We love you Lou, we can see how much you and Noah care for each other and we'll support you no matter what, so maybe go and visit over the course of a few months and then make your decision next year?" May says softly while holding my hand on the table.

"I love you guys" I cry.
"And we love you too, plus I've always wanted to go to America so now we have an excuse" Jesse winks.

****

I get back to the tour bus and typically all the lads are playing video games. I plonk myself in between Nic and Folio.
"Oooo what have you been buying? Folio noses into my shopping bag.
"Sex toys" I say without looking away from the TV with the straightest face that I can hold. I feel all 8 eyes turn to stare at me. "Kidding!" I bellow.
"Ew honestly Lou, don't do that" Folio says nudging me and pushing me into Nic.

I get up and head to the bunk to get started on my makeup, there's a soft knock as Noah starts to poke his head in.

"Can I come sit?" He asks nervously.
"Sure, love."

He sits at the end facing me, watching me with intent.
"Is everything okay?" He eventually asks.
"Yeah, everything is fine."
"Do you want to talk about what I said last night? I feel like you've been off with me since."
"I'm sorry, it was just a big question and to be honest I don't really want to talk about it right now."
"Okay, yeah, sure. I understand. We gotta go to sound check in a minute but I'll see you in the venue?"
"Absolutely, I wouldn't miss it." I smile and see those sad eyes staring back and I know how much I'm going to miss them when he leaves.
He plants a kiss on my head before leaving the bus and I'm alone with my own thoughts.

***

Before the boys come on, I head to the merch table to help Davis with the fans while the first support starts to come on leaving May and Jesse in the green room with our new family.

"Oh here she is, the best sales advisor in the world"
Davis shouts as I head behind the counter.

"Okay, you got to stop bigging me up, it was pot luck and you're going to be disappointed when it doesn't happen again" I reply.

We laugh and get to work.

An hour past by so quick, and the merch is flying out.
I pat Davis on the back and head to side stage ready to watch Bad Omens.
May, Jesse and I singing along to every single song sipping on our beers. The Death Of Peace Of Mind starts and Noah does his usual tradition of dedicating it to me before sending a wink my way. It never gets old.

Once they're finish, I head back to the merch table and help Davis and before I know it BVB were on their last song. Andy was doing a little speech and I was listening in as I was serving.
"Tomorrow is our last day in England and we want to thank everyone on this tour who have made this possible, you guys for coming along and supporting us and to our new friends we've made as well. You might have noticed our makeup isn't as good tonight and that's because we've done it ourselves. We want to thank our new friend Lou, she's over serving on the merch table. She did our makeup last night and you guys loved it, who thinks she should do it more often?"

I feel my cheeks burn up, as it they're literally about to set on fire as I stand and watch him. I hear the crowd go mental after he asked his question.

"Alright alright, we'll tell her to do it for our last night tomorrow. Hopefully she'll be kind enough to do it, so thank you Lou for being an amazing makeup artist" Andy finishes off and pointing at me.

I smile and mouth "thank you" received with a wink from him. He really didn't have to do that, but I'm so grateful. He's one of the kindest souls around and I'm obviously not going to say no to doing their makeup again.

The band leave and we realise we've pretty much sold out of everything. There's a few tshirts left in different sizes but that's it.

"Jesus Lou, we've never sold out of merch before" Davis says packing up empty boxes.
"Really? Well, you're welcome" I say sarcastically while laughing and start helping him pack away.
"You head back stage, this is my job, not yours" He orders me.

I head to the green room and are met with 9 very sweaty men and May and Jesse.

"Thanks Andy for that shout out, you really didn't have to do that but i appreciate it so much." I say going in for a hug.
"You're welcome, is that a yes to doing our makeup for the final night?" He pulls away still with his arms on my shoulders looking down at me.
"Of course! I'll do it anytime you want."
"Sick, can't wait. I'll get our photographer to take some pictures and tag you on instagram as well, that okay?"
"Oh shit, that's so fucking cool! Thank you so much. "
"Anytime, dude, it's been great hanging out with you," He says, heading to the back to get another beer.

Noah scoops me up and kisses me. "So how was it?" He says as he pulls away.
"Amazing as always, you guys kill it every night. I don't know how you do it, "
"Mad skills, I guess," he laughs as he brings me into the group.

***

We head back to the van, and everyone is winding down for bed as I head out of the bathroom after taking a shower. It was such a huge venue, hot and sweaty, and I felt gross.

I crawl into the bunk and cuddle into Noah. It's my favourite part of the day. I'm so glad throughout the days I've remembered to take pictures to remember my time with them, I'm really going to miss it. I feel an ache in my heart as I remember how much I love being with them all, with Noah.

I need to tell him my decision as it's the last day tomorrow.

Noah is so still, and I can feel his breathing getting heavier.

"Noah?"
"Mmhm?" He grumbles softly.
"I've thought about what you asked me last night, and..."

He's snoring. He's fallen asleep.

Thank you for the support on my story so far, it means a lot. I struggled with this chapter, so it's a filler ngl. I hope you enjoy!