Short Stories.

I remember.

I had rushed up the stairs and promptly emptied my stomach into the trash can. I locked the door as quickly as possible before collapsing to the floor, leaning against the bed's edge. The blaring music in the background was nearly unbearable, and I tried everything to tune it out- covering my ears, humming to myself. I looked out the window, wondering where to go. Taking a deep breath, I checked my phone, tears streaming down my face.
"I need you now more than ever,"
I whispered to myself, staring at my home screen, thinking of her. My heart ached, as if she had just died again.
"Sav..."
I murmured, releasing another shaky sigh.
As the party continued on in the background, I gazed up at the room before quickly grabbing my bag and opening the window. Sensing nobody would notice my absence, I decided to take advantage of the opportunity to step out for some fresh air. Slowly, I climbed out and made my way down the road, leaving the fading music and the rest of the night behind. Listening to music through my earbuds, I walked along the sidewalk, heading towards the place where I had last seen her. This was a spot where I knew I could find some peace and calmness, and be with her in spirit. As I approached the bridge in the distance, my pace quickened, choking on the memories of everything that had transpired between us. Although her voice remained stuck in my head, it was becoming harder to recall what it sounded like.
As tears welled up, I muttered to myself
"Sav..."
Her visage was all I craved; I simply yearned to be reunited with her, if only for a fleeting moment more. I gazed at the bridge in front of me, the familiarity of which felt like a dagger through my heart. I glanced down at my phone- 2:03 AM - the very same moment I had glimpsed her on this bridge before. Then, my gaze rose and there she stood, as if it was that very moment back again.
"Sav...?"
I whispered, and with that, reality hit me all over again.
I broke instantly into a run, forgetting everything.
My bag fell off, my earbuds fell out of my ears. I focused only on getting her attention just enough to pull her off the ledge and onto the bridge itself.
Not again. Please don't let this happen again. I yelled at myself as I tried running as fast as I could.
"Sav!"
I shouted.
What I should have done then, but I was too in shock to understand.
Why was she doing this?
She had no reaction to my calls. She stared down at the rushing water that would feel like concrete once she jumped off.
"Please.."
I felt myself get out of breath, I looked down and saw the twig I had tripped on when I was trying to save her. I made sure I got over it, looking back up to see her stepping closer to the edge. I felt my ankle be grabbed by something, and I fell into the hard ground beneath me. I shot up, looking down to see a vein from a bush hooked around my ankle and I quickly got myself away from it. I could feel my body start to break down as I tried saving her.
My love, my everything.
I saw her slip off the edge and my eyes widened,
I was there.
But I was too late, I held my hand out to catch her, but watched her fall into the dark nothingness.
I stared down as I couldn't see anything. The only thing that filled my eyes were my tears. I fell back into the ground, leaning on the wall of the bridge. I felt my heart grow in pain as I relived it all again.
The frantic call with the cops, the frantic yells for help, the days on end of begging them to find her body.
Everything came back to me.
I remembered her voice now, I remembered how happy she was.
How happy I thought she was.
I put my hands over my ears and begged for it to be a dream.
I looked back at my phone.
The picture of her..
My home.
I pulled my legs up to my chest and sighed.
Back in that empty room, the one we both were supposed to be in right now.