my online lover

you and I

I am tired of keep fighting against what my body wants and needs. And it desires him. I want him, to feel him, to connect with him. I don't want to do it with anyone else but Kevin.

I trust him. I feel safe with him. I can feel my body aches every time I stop during moments like this, and the burn on my skin begs me for more.

I fall a soft smile on my face, nodding slowly. He catches that sign by lowering his body slightly to grab my legs and wrap them around his waist. I lock my ankles against his back and hold myself by gripping his neck. He begins to walk, and since he fully knows the way to his bedroom, he starts to kiss me again. I sink my hands in his half-wet hair, making him breathe heavily against my lips. I smile over him, clenching the grip harder.

He steps inside his room and sits on the end of his bed, dragging me with him. I find myself on top of him, my knees placed at the side of his hips while I sit comfortably and closer my body to his. He heads back, leaving my lips to bow his head over my neck and starts to leave kisses along the outline of it. And I relax under his touch, feeling every muscle losing its power.

I feel his chest moving against mine slowly, still in control of it, and then he moves one hand on my shoulder, dragging the strip of the dress mildly down along my shoulder, and then he does the same with the other. When his hands are free, he puts one on my bare thigh, moving it higher and higher, increasing the heat in me. I wish I could do something for him, but I have no idea what to do and am frozen under his gentle and confident touch.

Kevin moves his kisses from my neck to my jaw, reaching back to my lips and kissing them again. My mind is more focused on his hand placed on my thigh close to the inside of it, letting it control my mind. I can feel his finger brushing my groin, and I try to hold back a whine, feeling the tightness inside me growing.

«Relax,» he whispers against my lips before inching toward my ear. «You'll feel everything except for tension,» he confesses before kissing my lobe.

I am trying to relax. I thought I was, but probably even if I feel safe in his arms, the awareness of what is going on is something that my mind can control more than I want to, and when this happens, I panic because I want to know how to act.

But Kevin knows how to do it, how to make me relax and lose control the way I am more pleased to feel. And when he slides his hand in between my thighs, over my panty, touching my intimacy, I inhale sharply and bite my bottom lip. Pleasure suddenly burst all over my body after being touched where no one -except myself- did. When he starts to rub his fingers against my entrance, I slightly groan, closing my eyes and realising this was his way to make me relax. My body is on another planet right now.

Against mine, his chest starts to move fast, and I feel his breath on my cheek. His touch is confident, and I feel my panties getting wet. I have no idea if it's because of the first time being touched there or because it's Kevin doing it, but the pleasure rises inside me, and now I am sure I want more. I want him, and I want him now.

I turn my head towards his and kiss him fiercely, pushing my body against him, trying to let him know I don't feel tense anymore. He quickly understands my thoughts, moving his hand away from my inner thighs and wrapping my waist with both his arms before picking me up and rolling our body, placing himself on top of me, between my legs. Without interrupting the kiss, I drive my shaky hands along the buttons of his shirt, open it and then caress his shoulders to free him of it. I rear back from his lips and bow it to reach his neck, leaving kisses and gently biting the skin of it.

With one hand, he holds himself on the bed while with the other one, he reaches for the zip on the side of my dress, dragging it down, and once it's fully open, he presses down the straps and slips them off my shoulders before freeing my breast. At that moment, I stop the kissing and quickly move my arms against my bare chest with an involuntary movement. Not knowing why it feels abruptly awkward.