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New Beginnings

I sighed as I looked at the Grave. It was mossy and it was originally lighter when it was first set out. It was raining and cold. I set down a flower on the grave and sighed, I was to emotionally strained to even cry, I was so focused on trying to not believe it. I was so focused on trying to believe he was still here with me.

I looked over and saw a man and a women, his parents, his parents were here. I felt angry and sad and. . . So many other emotions. I watched them. It made the memory's come back. The memory's I so hated.

I leaned my head on the car window watching out the window of the car. Trees passing and occasionally deer maybe some road kill on the side of the road, "Cmon honey this'll be good for us" I heard my mom say. "Not as good as you think mom," I said. I didn't want to move to Pennsylvania. I know the only reason we were leaving was because my mom and my dad decided to divorce and mom won custody for the year. But still. New friends, new house, new roads, new neighborhood, new everything. The car went silent until
we turned into our new house. It was somewhat big but beat up, whatever we could afford.

Some time passed and we unpacked somewhat quickly. I set up my bed and went to help my mom with hers seeing I had muscle when I heard a knock on the door, I walked over and opened it, "Hello!! I'm Mrs.Matthews. " A women with a pair of jeans and white t-shirt said. I noticed  a boy next to her, about my age and shorter but well built, "This is my son Alex, welcome to the neighborhood" The lady now known as Mrs.Matthews said. "Thank you, I'm Wyatt" I said before my mom came running to the door. She pushed me aside "Jeez. . And you say I need manners?" I said while looking up at her, "Oh hush." She said while I got up and walked away.

I could here my mom and that other lady rambling at the front door while I set up my moms bed. A few minutes later I heard the door shut and my mom walking towards her room she smiled at me, "How's pizza sound for dinner kiddo?" She said. I set the mattress on her bed grunting, "Sure" I said. "You wanna stay home?",I wanted to stay home. I need a cigarette and would get my shit shoved in if my mom knew I smoked "Yeah I'll stay," I said. She smiled and nodded walking away grabbing her purse. I heard the car start and instantly went to the back yard. Pretty big. Not bad. I grabbed a cigarette and a match. I started the match by scraping it on the concrete step and lighting the cigarette. I took a deep huff "Thank god. ." I said out loud. I finished the cigarette and threw the bud in the yard going back inside. I walk back inside the house and go lay on my bed, I nearly fell asleep before mom came home and had the pizza.
I ate a few pieces of pizza and went to bed. I hope things go okay.