I Never Told You

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Beca never came back to camp after our conversation. Even though I was angry and upset with her, I was still worried. I mean it wasn't her fault she didn't say what I wanted her to say. It's not her fault.

I am greeted with her standing in my room once we get back from the retreat. I stand in the doorway just staring at her. Beca stands in the middle of mine and Stacie's room. I walk in, shut and lock the door behind me. I stand next to her. Together, stare at my dream board that covers my wall. A picture of Beca and I is taped in the middle of it all. I single heart is drawn around us. I know her eyes are on that single picture.

"Um are you okay?" I ask her not really sure what to say. She doesn't say anything. "Beca, please say something." I beg her. The one thing I hate more than Beca and I fighting is a quiet Beca.

"I have been interning at a real deal record label company." She tells me. "My boss was impressed by something I did and told me he would listen to one of my demos. He didn't like it. He told me he needed something original and I can't write songs. So I am now finding out that maybe I am not cut out for this business right before graduating." She tells me. I look over at her. She lets a single tear fall before wiping it away.

"Beca." I sigh. "Why didn't you tell me?" I ask her.

She does this little huff, sigh thing. "You know that I am not good at the whole opening up thing. I just figured I could figure it out on my own and I can't." She sighs. "And frankly, I don't know what to do. I wish I could do what Emily does but I can't and it's annoying."

"Beca you don't suck. You are freaking amazing. You will figure it out. You always do." I remind her.

"And what if I don't?" She asks me sitting down on the bed. What am I supposed to say to that? I mean the girl has a point. What if she doesn't figure it out? Someone knocks on the door. Most likely Stacie. I unlock the door, letting whoever is on the other side in.

"We weren't listening in on the conversation or anything." Emily says first out of the girls standing in the doorway. Beca stands up and points to Emily.

"Do you want to collaborate on something?" She asks Emily. Emily nods like crazy.

"Are you serious?" She asks even though she already nodded. "Oh my gosh, yes!" She exclaims doing some weird little dance. Beca grabs her arms and makes her stop.

"No no." Beca says. She starts to walk up to her room but I stop her. "What?" She asks turning around. "Sure." She shrugs already knowing what I am about to ask her. She walks back in and jumps on my bed. She pats the bed next to her.

"You are so weird." I laugh lying down. She pulls the covers over both of us. I wish it could be like this all the time but it can't be. I know that when tomorrow comes, I'll be on my own. I will be, once again, alone. Beca will go back to Jesse and everything will be normal and I will be alone. And man does it suck knowing that. I mean, I have the greatest girl right next to me and all I can think about is tomorrow and how this will end. "Stop thinking so much and cuddle me." Beca says breaking my train of thought.

"Well you could be a little less demanding." I laugh at her. I wrap one arm around her as my body forms to hers.

**Beca**

Waking up in Chloe's arms is probably the best feeling. I love waking up before her because I can just lie there, next to her and not have to worry about anything. The moment she wakes up, everything changes. It sucks. I mean everyone knows what I really wanted to say yesterday but I doubt she even likes me back. Plus there is the whole Jesse thing which is kinda a problem that I need to deal with. Yea I would love to walk up to Jesse and just tell him that we are over but it isn't that easy. I have opened up to him so much and I did give a good four years of my life to that kid. I hate feelings.

"Beca." Chloe groans. "Go get me food." She whines. I look over my shoulder at her.

"Who the hell do you think you are talking to?" I ask her laughing a little. "I am not getting you food." I tell her.

"But I cuddled you all night. I think that deserves food." She says back.

"Don't act like you didn't enjoy it." I say, sitting up in bed. Stacie is already gone or she never came back. I grab Chloe's arm making her sit up. "Let's go get food together." I say pulling her out of bed. I pull Chloe out to the kitchen. All the girls stare at us as we walk in.

"Well there is the happy couple." Stacie exclaims smiling at both of us. I immediately drop Chloe's hand from mine.

"What no? What?" I say getting all defensive. "Dude no, we are just friends." I remind them.

"Yea guys, we are just friends." Chloe says, sounding a little hurt by it.

"What's up, Bellas!" Jesse exclaims walking into the kitchen. "Becs, you ready to go?" He asks even though I am clearly not ready. "I might want to consider putting some pants on." He jokes. A few of the girls, including me, force a small laugh out.

"Yea sorry. I over slept." I tell him. "I will just go get ready." Even though I haven't had breakfast or my coffee. After a few minutes, someone knocks on my door. "Come in." I shout from the closet. Chloe walks in holding two coffee mugs.

"I noticed you didn't get your coffee this morning and everyone knows you are kind of a crab ass without your coffee." She says handing me one of the mugs. I take a sip. She knows exactly how I like my coffee. "So where are you and Jesse off to?" She asks as I pull on a pair of ripped skinny jeans.

"We are just grabbing lunch at some place Jesse found." I tell her taking another sip of the coffee. "I don't really know but he seems to be excited about it so I guess I will be too." I shrug. Honestly, the only reason I really agreed to go to this restaurant is because I feel bad. I have been so focused on everyone else and I have been pushing Jesse away, again.

"Well you look really cute." Chloe says adding a wink. I can feel my face grow increasingly redder. Great. "Did I just make Beca Mitchell blush?" She asks laughing. "I think that is at least ten points off your badassness." She tells me.

"No, I am badass and nothing will take away from that." I say, jokingly. "Well I should probably get going. Kinda have a date to attend." I add setting the coffee down. "I'll see ya later, Chlo."

"Alright have fun but not too much fun." She yells after me. I can feel my face get red again. God damn that girl.