Yeah.
Why Stan.
Why did you make others cry.
Why did you make Kyle cry.
You deserve the pain.
You need the pain.
" Stan!" Kyle hugged me close and began wiping my tears with his sleeve.
I didn't realize I was crying.
I didn't realize Kyle had moved us onto the couch.
" Stan. Where else." He can read me like a book and I hate it.
I looked at me legs and he put his hand there, I nodded.
He began to pull down my sweatpants, I had boxers on so I didn't really care.
I couldn't care anymore.
He unwrapped my legs and they looked worse. He dragged me onto his lap and hugged me as I silently sobbed.
" Baby, I know I was mad at you, but you don't deserve this. I love you, more that words can explain. I love you so so so so so much Stan.
Do you still go to that therapy place?"
I nodded. Kyle kissed my head over and over again, then the door opened, Kenny came in.
( Kyles pov )
As I kissed Stan Kenny came in.
" Hey Kenny... did you need something?"
Kenny ran over and hugged Stan, while doing this he pressed on Stan's wounds cause him to scream.
" SHIT!" Stan Lowered his head and Kenny left the room leaving the food he brought us on the table.
I pulled Stan into my lap and he cried in pain.
" It hurts Ky... make it stop!" He kept sobbing into my chest.
I grabbed his hands an put them on my shoulders. I then wrapped my arms around his waist.
" Ky! Please! Make it stop!!!" He kept crying and then I looked at his cuts longer, I could see bone.
" Shh~ Stan... I can see bone..."
He started shaking and crying harder as I ran my fingers over the wounds.
" I'm sorry Baby, but I need to look at something..."
Stan kept sobbing till I reached one cut, it was the one I could see the bone.
" KY! MAKE IT STOP! IT BURNS !!" He kept screaming, the tears never stopped.
I pulled him back into our embrace and he kept sobbing until he fell asleep in my arms.
I re-wrapped his arms and legs and put him in our bed.
I went down stairs and saw Kenny and Marj watching T.V and decided to join them.
" I'm sorry... I didn't mean to hurt Stan.." Kenny's voice was horse, it sounded like he had been crying.
" It's ok, he's sleeping right now.."
" Are you sure he's ok? He sounded like he said it was burning? We could hear him down here." Marj said.
" Sorry... he was in a lot of pain, I'll try not to let him make as much noise..."
" No! It's fine, I get it, he was in a shit-tone of pain." Kenny spoke as he sat up from Marj's lap.
" I think I'm going to go to bed, night guys..." Kenny began walking up stairs.
" Is he ok?" I ask.
" You know how he thinks of Stan. It's like if you put Ike in hospital, you would be crushed. He's just upset about hurting Stan," Mark stood and began walking up stairs, " I'll go check on him, you should probably go to bed too Kyle, it's getting late."
I looked out the window and saw the stars in the sky.
" I think I'm going to go out for a bit..."
" Ok, make sure to lock the door though, have a good night Kyle." Marj said as she walked up stairs.
I went upstairs to grab my jacket and put my shoes on, then I felt a hand grab mine.
" Ky..? Where are you going?" Stan liked at me with pleading eyes.
I kissed his forehead, " I'm just going to go to Starks pond for a bit... I'll be back soon Baby."
" Wait, let me go with you..." Stan began to stand and winced a bit.
" Stan... you should rest, I don't like to see you in pain like this..."
He shook his head, " I want to make up for the other night, please..." he looked up at me with puppy dog eyes.
" Fine." He smiled and threw on a sweater and some shoes.
" BUT! If you are in to much pain your coming right back." I said as Stan intertwined our fingers.
I opened the door and locked it, as we walked to Starks pond I saw Stan looking at me.
" What's up?" I turn my head towards him before he replied.
" Nothin... you just look really pretty in this light..."
I kissed his head and we soon reached that raggedy bench in the forest by the lake.
Stan picked up a rock and skipped it across the lake.
" Beat that! 5 skips!"
I stuck my tung out and skipped a rock, it slipped 3 times before sinking.
" Ha! I can't be beaten!" Stan said as he sat on the bench.
While we're out here I wanted to ask him about the cuts.
" You don't have to answer if you don't want to Stan... but why did you cut again, you were doing to well..."
He just looked at the ground and smiled.
" I'm not sure. Maybe it's cause I deserved it, or maybe it's cause I wasn't in my body. Who knows." He shrugged and continued looking at the floor before continuing,
" You know, it's kind of like watching your self in third person. Almost like your sleeping and wake up to the harm done on your body.
I blinked and the damage was done."
I pulled him closer to me by the waist and kissed his head.
" I love you Stan..."
" I love you more Kyle."
I laughed, " I don't think that's possible..."
After a few hours Stan and I stood up and began to walk back home.
" Kyle wait..."
I turned and saw Stan standing with his hand under the moon.
" What's up?"
" Did you know you can see what time it is without a clock?"
What is this dork going on about, I shake my head and walk over to him.
" You put your hand at the horizon line, every four fingers repeats a hour. Each finger represents 15 minutes."
I nodded as Stan added his second hand on top of the other.
" it's about... 2:30 am, I might have done that wrong..." he looked at me and smiled.
" Come here! I'll show you."
I don't know why, but seeing Stan like this makes me feel like we're 10 again.
We used to sneak out and climb into his backyards tallest tree. Stan would be out on the farthest away branch and point out each constellation he saw.
Then he would fall asleep on me and I would have to put him back In his bed before the sun woke up so our parents didn't get suspicious of us.
It was our little game, every Sunday night. We would talk about it for hours and hours at school. Kenny and Cartman would be so confused and thought we were
coo-coo.
Stan grabbed me hands and put them where his were.
" See?"
I nodded and he pointed to each finger as he counted.
" we should probably go home Stan, if it is 2:30am."
He nodded and we began walking back home.
I unlocked the door and Stan and I took our shoes off. I grabbed us each a bottle of water and went upstairs to change.
When I was done Stan came in and took of the sweater he wore.
As we laid in bed, I kissed Stan's wrapped arms.
" I love you so much Baby..."
" I love you more Ky.."
I soon heard soft breathing indicating Stan fell asleep.
" Not possible Stan..."
Not again...
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