my online lover

box of heat

«Kevin and I kissed,» I throw out with a silly smile. «I mean, I kissed him.»

Antonio chokes his pasta and Giacomo drops his jaw, looking at me with a speechless look. I shrug, filling my mouth with my food before shifting my gaze between the two guys in front of me.

«When?»

I think about it, remembering that Giacomo doesn't know anything about Kevin's real life. «Two days ago, after the date.»

Antonio is biting his inner cheeks while his boyfriend is giving me a smiley gaze, probably proud I arrived at this point without knowing the reality behind the situation. But I like this, it makes me feel like having a normal relationship with Kevin, without nominating his father or whatever is correlated to him.

«Why didn't you tell me?» Suddenly Antonio screams. «Details. Now.»

I widen my eyes, trying to give my best friend a 'understand' look but apparently, he doesn't get it. I sigh deeply and cross my hands on the table, diving my mind into some good lies that won't be a full one. «Not that deep. After the date, he dropped me back home and I cut the gap by kissing him. I felt to do it so I did.»

I want to drop the real moment so bad but I have to wait to be alone with my best friend that is giving me a frown look and I linger my eyes into him, trying to toss some signals about the situation. He suddenly changes his expression, realising what I am trying to tell him and Giacomo is flashing us some concerned sight, probably trying to read us.

«That's good, Enny,» Giacomo cuts the silence. «I didn't know you were still seeing him. And hearing that you two stepped forward makes me think you dropped a bit your walls.»

I shift my gaze to the guy who just talked and nod slowly. «Yeah,» I mutter with a wide smile. «I am still working on it but it's something.»

I grab my glass of wine and knock down the remaining red liquid in it, feeling the burning in my throat slipping down along my chest. When I put back the glass, my friends are shooting me some weird looks.

«You should drop it,» Antonio speaks while he takes the bottle of wine and pulls it away from me.

I shrug, knowing that the amount I have drank is enough to make me feel my headlight. Giacomo excuse himself to stand up and go to the toilet.

I check Antonio seeing him following his boyfriend with his brown eyes before sitting next to me and inching towards me. «Spill the tea, quickly.»

My head spins but I try to stay still. «During the attack, he got shot I had to run away to not get hurt and the police took me so I had to stay in a bad smell cell until he came to rescue me when we were back to his house we discussed because I didn't like to have walked back alone when he was hurt and then he just told me cute words and I kissed him because I felt to do it,» I toss quickly without taking any break and when I shut up my breathe is fast and my heart pounding in my ribs.

I face Antonio and he is blinking with his mouth open in an 'o' shape. I chuckle pushing my hands against my cheeks, feeling them burning. I am sure they're fully red but I am fine. My head is having a good time and also my heart, now pounding less as I relax after my words race.

«Damn,» my best friend answers to my long sentence. «So, you two got attacked. He got shot. You ran away and got caught by the police. You had to wait for him to release you from the jail. Went back to his house. Discuss. He told you some deep romantic shit and you felt by kissing him?»

I nod, with a guilty face. «He said he sees me in his future.» I face down, looking at my fingers as a stupid smile appears on my face while a let a little hiccup leave my mouth. I snick after that, brushing my hand against my mouth. «I wish I could say the same but I have no idea what will happen once the plan is over.»