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3. Him

It has been two week since I'm here. To be honest, I would say I have progressed a lot in making the maids in this house hate me less. I have behaved with them nicely, unlike the original soul.

Speaking of her, whatever she has gone through before, her past trauma has been causing me nightmares. Her memories of those horrible moments are still very much intact to this brain and I'm sure the poor thing had nightmares worse than me. I know in details whatever had happened to her and honestly, I can't forget them even after going back to my old self (if I can go that is). At this point, I don't have it in me to blame the poor soul anymore for anything.

I have been waking up drenched in cold sweat in the middle of night and trying to catch my breath, and not being able to sleep anymore... probably the reason why I look close to a zombie every day. The nightmares, the heinous actions of those monsters, the pain, everything feels too real to me because they are not just bad dreams but real incidents... memories. The poor soul believed that she was disgusting and didn't deserve anyone after how those monsters had touched her. But her attraction and hunger for love towards Kanha made her do the bad things she did. I know that her actions were wrong but living as her now, I can't bring myself to blame her. It's not like she had anyone to show her what's wrong and what's right. She wanted to feel loved and she didn't. She used to harm herself at night too, after waking up from those nightmares, to remove the feeling of pain and disgust she felt, to feel something other than that. Now, that I think of it, I wonder if she, even if at the back of the mind, really wanted death when she jumped into the Gomti river.

I already had my dinner and medicines and now I was reveling on whatever was happening. With all these thoughts in my mind, I was sitting beside the window, looking at the view outside, damn! It was exhilarating. That's when Chanchala, the maid I had really successfully managed to not hate me anymore, came knocking. I had managed to break down her walls and befriended her in these two weeks. A lovely, cheerful girl she is!

Once I let her in, she informed me what could have been the best news of my life if I was living as Nishtha, but right now seemed like the worst news to me.

"Rajkumari, Dwarkadhish is on his way here to meet you!", she said with a huge grin on the face.

Oh Lord!

Even I don't know which lord I am calling upon to help right now...

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