THE UNREQUITED LOVE

15.

"Are you going somewhere love?"

"Dad said from today tutor will come home to teach him"

Yuri answered, I confusingly looked over at Eunwoo, he was smiling cheerfully, suddenly I heard someone clearing his throat behind me, I stood up turn around to find Taehyung, bedecked up. Out of nowhere my heart start to beat abnormally, it was surely not in a good way, as I look into his eyes I remember his mom's words, he loves someone else, he'll leave me and the kids alone again, and he'll again hurt us, I reminded myself. 

I should prepare myself for all this if I'll not get used to him maybe then I might not get hurt, I'll push him away from myself and my kids too for sure, I never want my kids to face what I did, I'll not let him hurt them anyhow, I'll protect them. I curiously look over and snap at him,

"What teacher?"

It was a little rude than I want it to be but it was too late to take my words back now, he was also taken aback too but ignored it anyway and answered,

"I don't want him to lag behind in studies just because of his disorder"

"But-"

"I did it for his future so that he won't need to study with his juniors"

"I want to give him a normal life ahead"

He dares to cut me in between...what de he just said 'he wants to give him a normal life, I scoffed, what does he think of himself, who is he to care about my baby, how can he act that nothing ever happened, how can he act like he never threw me out of his life, how can he ignore the fact that he was never there for my kids when they needed him the most, how can he forget that he was never there for us when people were saying things to us, blaming us, how can he forget everything, just how? I can't understand him at all and I want to know what he wants now, what the heck he wants from us, why is he doing all this, why is he acting like he cares... losing my mind I almost whispered,

"Why?"

Only that word escaped from my mouth, my eyes were already teary but I tried my best not to break down in front of him, I can't be vulnerable in front of him, never ever..., I really don't know why he is doing all this. Why is he acting like he actually cares? Why is he acting like he never left us for freaking five years? I took a deep breath and spoke,

"You don't have to do anything for my kids I can take care of them like I'm doing"

"But they are my kids too" 

He replied I look back at the kids they both were looking curiously at us.

Yeah suddenly out of nowhere they are his kids too, I can't allow him to do all this, he can't just come into our lives and step out anytime whenever he wants to, he can't do all this anymore, he lost that authority long back ago. We do have feelings, we do feel emotions, we do feel hurt, we do feel miserable, we do feel lonely, we do... and now he can't play with our emotions as I let him earlier, not this time, I have my kids now, I'm not alone, I love them.

I cupped both of their faces and asked them,

"Can you both please head out first?"

Without saying or asking anything they both head out, I look over at him and asked again,

"Why are you doing all this now?"

I can no more keep that question to myself, I need answers, he's confusing me,

"They are my-"

"For god, sake stop calling them yours, you don't have any liberty to them"

"I'm legally their father"

'Father' I scoffed mockingly, he frowned confusingly, surely he was, I clenched my jaw and rested my hands on my waist, I took some deep breaths more like collecting myself and asked him,

"Father? Where were you when for the first time they asked me about their dad?"

"Where were you from the past five years?"

"Why? Why are you acting like nothing happened?"

He look over me in disbelief, he opened his mouth but nothing came out of his mouth, well that was the worst I expected. Just like everyone is trying to rub the reality on my face, I did the same, I reminded him how he damaged me and the kids, how he hurt us.

 My body was literally shaking, I'm on the verge of collapsing at any moment right now, I know I'm a second away from having a panic attack, but he sighed and spoke,

"Yn I'm trying to help you and Eunwoo-"

"Yeah, that's right just help us and get out of our lives like you did before"

"We are already used to living without you"

"You don't have to interfere in our lives"

"Don't act as if you care for them, they'll only get hurt in the end"

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