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Hello, sadness, mourning loss

Come, sit with me a while.

Your cool embrace has been missed,

Long shrouded behind a smile.

I am no longer fearful of you.

In truth, your company brings relief.

So long have I pushed you away,

But now I welcome my grief.

With you, I can mourn and reminisce.

I can feel my sorrow and regret.

My tears flow freely, hesitant no more,

To dampen memories I longed to forget.

He's still here - as kind as I recall,

Yet I told myself I hadn't missed him at all.

My tears relay a different story,

Contradictory yet true.

In my heart, I knew I'd missed him.

I just wouldn't allow myself to.